last update until i get my shit together
i didnt run. i could barely walk the 5 min to class without getting winded....then again up the stairs to the lab without haveing to grab on to the railing.
:( im emotional. everything is making me feel. auditing today, i had to stop reading my book and listening to my professor because it made me anxious. i hate when that feeling creeps up on me. i started to get uncertain...not about my choices, but about how all my choices were going to have to blend together somehow.
it seems like (in my head at least) that not everything fits. something is going to have to be eliminated...but nothing can be eliminated.
i dont know what my problem is...
i feel overly sensitive lately also. yesturday in particular. people's comments seemed harshly directed toward me. simple teasing made me feel like there were tears welling up.
i want to escape again. escape my own head.
:( im emotional. everything is making me feel. auditing today, i had to stop reading my book and listening to my professor because it made me anxious. i hate when that feeling creeps up on me. i started to get uncertain...not about my choices, but about how all my choices were going to have to blend together somehow.
it seems like (in my head at least) that not everything fits. something is going to have to be eliminated...but nothing can be eliminated.
i dont know what my problem is...
i feel overly sensitive lately also. yesturday in particular. people's comments seemed harshly directed toward me. simple teasing made me feel like there were tears welling up.
i want to escape again. escape my own head.