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I absolutely despise being single.
But yet contradicted by not wanting to get into another relationship.
I don't like casual flings.. If I'm going to be involved, it has to mean something. It has to come from the heart, it has to come with love.
I don't want to put effort into another relationship, just because I feel it's too much work. I really don't want to love anyone else but him.
What a crock of shit!
Why am I like this!?
I like the idea of love.. No, no... I love the idea of love. And I want it in my life.
Why do the people that I crave attention for, ... Why isn't it reciprocated? Why do I feel like I'm unwanted?? I keep telling myself, that if I don't want me, no one else will. And it's true.. And I try to want me.. But .. .. ..
I know you should live life for yourself, and no one else. But I need someone in my life.. Not just anyone.. Someone that I'm completely and utterly in love with.
Someone who feels the same as I.. Wants me as much as I want them..
Doesn't everybody want that? I would think so. I would hope so.
I feel so alone and empty. I just want love again.
I want to cradle and embrace it. Cherish it. Never let go of it....
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I just want to be able to love again. Without pain. Without anger. Without jealousy. Without envy. Without negativity. Without everything that I am.
I want a relationship.
But I don't want me in it.
But yet contradicted by not wanting to get into another relationship.
I don't like casual flings.. If I'm going to be involved, it has to mean something. It has to come from the heart, it has to come with love.
I don't want to put effort into another relationship, just because I feel it's too much work. I really don't want to love anyone else but him.
What a crock of shit!
Why am I like this!?
I like the idea of love.. No, no... I love the idea of love. And I want it in my life.
Why do the people that I crave attention for, ... Why isn't it reciprocated? Why do I feel like I'm unwanted?? I keep telling myself, that if I don't want me, no one else will. And it's true.. And I try to want me.. But .. .. ..
I know you should live life for yourself, and no one else. But I need someone in my life.. Not just anyone.. Someone that I'm completely and utterly in love with.
Someone who feels the same as I.. Wants me as much as I want them..
Doesn't everybody want that? I would think so. I would hope so.
I feel so alone and empty. I just want love again.
I want to cradle and embrace it. Cherish it. Never let go of it....
,
.
,
.
,
.
.
.
.
-
I just want to be able to love again. Without pain. Without anger. Without jealousy. Without envy. Without negativity. Without everything that I am.
I want a relationship.
But I don't want me in it.