The asking of favors
"There comes a time in every man's life when he's gt to handle shit on his on. Can't depend on friends to help you in a squeeze. Please, they've got problems of their own."
It's a line from a song, but it has a lot of meaning to me. I don't like asking favors and I avoid it as much as possible. Not because I'm too proud to ask for help. We all have low moments and need a hand. This I know. I avoid it because I highly dislike asking others to go out of their way for something that was most likely the result of my own mistakes or shortcomings. There's probably a million other things people could be doing than bailing my ass out. There are exceptions to this. If by not asking for assistance the problem negaively effects others, I'll seek help. I don't like other people suffering because of me. That's just as bad as asking someone to go out of their way to help me when I fall short. If the only person who must endure is myself, then I make no plans to bother anyone. I'll figure something out. Unless of course it requires skills or knowledge I don't have. I don't think my logic is flawed in living this way.
The heat effects the Main relay in my car which of course keeps it from starting at times or shuts my car off prematurely. Of course I currently lack the tools to remove it and resolder the thing. Do to helping with family financial probs and not getting paid again until thursday, I am without cash. So, last night I had to ask around for a ride to work. I didn't like doing it, but it would have been rude to try and ask someone last minute to cover me on 3rd shift (1a - 7a). Not to mention I need the money to help out my family and to take care of mara. One little problem, I lack friends here. Out of about +9 people, 3 actually got back to me. I felt really bad asking for a ride but I had to go to work. So, this morning I walked home from work rather than ask any of the few people who might answer me to get up early and chaffeur me home.
When I mentioned my little walk today while talking to Rogue, she was a bit upset with me. I don't think it was that big a deal. It was only a 6 mile walk and it's a straight shot. I was quite proud of myself for making it in just under 2hrs. The 1st half of the walk goes thru a "not so nice" area. But at 7:30am, I didn't think too many people would be up, let alone looking for trouble. I was right. The second half of the walk is down State Road 29, which runs along the river. Much like most highways, not a lot of walking space, BUT there is a sidewalk of sorts... A very shitty sidewalk... of sorts. lol... I think I may be the 1st person to walk it in quite a while.
After the graveyard shift, a 6 mile walk in 85+ weather was a little exhausting. Yet I only slept for 4 hours. The whole lack of sleep thing is getting old. Do to things outside my control I don't have the option of working on my car today. I'm hoping it cools down enough for me to start my car and go to work tonight. I really don't care to relive yesterday. I will if I have to, but I'd rather not.
It's a line from a song, but it has a lot of meaning to me. I don't like asking favors and I avoid it as much as possible. Not because I'm too proud to ask for help. We all have low moments and need a hand. This I know. I avoid it because I highly dislike asking others to go out of their way for something that was most likely the result of my own mistakes or shortcomings. There's probably a million other things people could be doing than bailing my ass out. There are exceptions to this. If by not asking for assistance the problem negaively effects others, I'll seek help. I don't like other people suffering because of me. That's just as bad as asking someone to go out of their way to help me when I fall short. If the only person who must endure is myself, then I make no plans to bother anyone. I'll figure something out. Unless of course it requires skills or knowledge I don't have. I don't think my logic is flawed in living this way.
The heat effects the Main relay in my car which of course keeps it from starting at times or shuts my car off prematurely. Of course I currently lack the tools to remove it and resolder the thing. Do to helping with family financial probs and not getting paid again until thursday, I am without cash. So, last night I had to ask around for a ride to work. I didn't like doing it, but it would have been rude to try and ask someone last minute to cover me on 3rd shift (1a - 7a). Not to mention I need the money to help out my family and to take care of mara. One little problem, I lack friends here. Out of about +9 people, 3 actually got back to me. I felt really bad asking for a ride but I had to go to work. So, this morning I walked home from work rather than ask any of the few people who might answer me to get up early and chaffeur me home.
When I mentioned my little walk today while talking to Rogue, she was a bit upset with me. I don't think it was that big a deal. It was only a 6 mile walk and it's a straight shot. I was quite proud of myself for making it in just under 2hrs. The 1st half of the walk goes thru a "not so nice" area. But at 7:30am, I didn't think too many people would be up, let alone looking for trouble. I was right. The second half of the walk is down State Road 29, which runs along the river. Much like most highways, not a lot of walking space, BUT there is a sidewalk of sorts... A very shitty sidewalk... of sorts. lol... I think I may be the 1st person to walk it in quite a while.
After the graveyard shift, a 6 mile walk in 85+ weather was a little exhausting. Yet I only slept for 4 hours. The whole lack of sleep thing is getting old. Do to things outside my control I don't have the option of working on my car today. I'm hoping it cools down enough for me to start my car and go to work tonight. I really don't care to relive yesterday. I will if I have to, but I'd rather not.