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For over a year now, my life has been dominated by major looming dates. Not dates like birthdays and holidays, but hospital visits and college deadlines and friends coming or going, dates to work for or wait for with stress or hope but always always always anticipation. Now it feels like, after college friends are gone (23rd) and first semester ends (26th) there will be nothing but the quavering wait for April and college decisions. I mean, I know I insist I love every school on my list, and with the exception of Stanford it's pretty much true, but that doesn't mean I'm not stressed.
Besides, I really can't go to Wesleyan because it would cost way too much. So do Yale and Pomona, but my parents would never say no to Yale, and I've gone on and on about my adoration for Pomona to the point where I don't think finances could stop me. And all my other schools (I specify my to disclude Stanford) offer merit scholarships. In a perfect world, I just might get a free ride from Lewis and Clark or American University. At Occidental there's no chance--the only people they'd give full rides to are the disadvantaged and the absolutely mind-blowingly academically fantastic--but I might still get something, and the affiliation with Columbia makes my parents pretty happy about Occidental despite it lacking name value.
This is an attempt to (regarding nothing but waiting, not the monetary ramble) prove myself wrong
February
- Find out if I'm a Douglass Scholar finalist
- Find out if I'm a National Merit finalist
- Fax Yale my 'accomplishments'
- Midwinter break (erroneously named, but still nice)
- Visit American University
- Visit Flo =D
- Possibly try out for Follies
March
- Possibly hear back from Lewis and Clark
- Possibly perform at Follies
...Yeah, gotta work on March. *gulp*