sickly
i read all these things and hear all this advice about relationships. heh, the myspace compatibility for scorpios was way off. i liked shawn as soon as i met him. dana told me that we seem as though we would be friends. so i really didn't wanna like him. i don't like being that predictable. but i thought he was very handsome.
things feel so hard and weird right now. two days and we've been together for 5 months. i love him so much, it's really fucking disgusting. i just adore him and he makes me laugh. even when i'm mad at him, i can rarely just stay mad. i'll get upset and stay that way for awhile, but it's more about hurt feelings. he loves me, being around me. i can't even believe it, but i spend every spare moment with him. if he's not working, he's with me and vice versa. hehe, well except when i'm with veronica. i really like that my friends G E N U I N E L Y like him. it's the first guy any of my friends have really liked. i just want thomas to meet him. i think they'd like each others company and conversation.
i want to marry him. already. but i know that a lot of things need to happen before that is even an issue.
in other news, i fucking miss marc. i hear panic! at the disco songs and i think of him and the concert and where he is. one day at work i just started crying because it really feels like i'm never going to see him again. i need to finish my letter to him. he NEEDS to know i miss him and still think of him and our stupid goals and dreams. and i think i need to know that he understands that.
i feel drained lately. for split seconds i think i'm pregnant, but then i remember that we didn't have sex for a month. and i don't think its possible if we only had sex like ... last week. -sigh- it's only been hours, but i really miss him already. i miss my boys. and i can't stand how much i love either of them.
good luck.
things feel so hard and weird right now. two days and we've been together for 5 months. i love him so much, it's really fucking disgusting. i just adore him and he makes me laugh. even when i'm mad at him, i can rarely just stay mad. i'll get upset and stay that way for awhile, but it's more about hurt feelings. he loves me, being around me. i can't even believe it, but i spend every spare moment with him. if he's not working, he's with me and vice versa. hehe, well except when i'm with veronica. i really like that my friends G E N U I N E L Y like him. it's the first guy any of my friends have really liked. i just want thomas to meet him. i think they'd like each others company and conversation.
i want to marry him. already. but i know that a lot of things need to happen before that is even an issue.
in other news, i fucking miss marc. i hear panic! at the disco songs and i think of him and the concert and where he is. one day at work i just started crying because it really feels like i'm never going to see him again. i need to finish my letter to him. he NEEDS to know i miss him and still think of him and our stupid goals and dreams. and i think i need to know that he understands that.
i feel drained lately. for split seconds i think i'm pregnant, but then i remember that we didn't have sex for a month. and i don't think its possible if we only had sex like ... last week. -sigh- it's only been hours, but i really miss him already. i miss my boys. and i can't stand how much i love either of them.
good luck.