Being a dumb girl ...
I hate it. I really, really hate it. I need to shave my legs. I got bras and some underwear today. And I'm going to hell for it. Please .... please no lectures. I know what i'm jeopardizing. But ... it's like a tick. I knew the weakness and i exploited it. It's not my fault they under staff their store ... ALL day. I almost got a dress too ... but i just went home. I have to get my check tomorrow. That'll be fun. but i have to get pants, i don't like wearing those burgundy pants everyday.
I really want photoshop again. And some new fonts ... and brushes ... and stuff. heh. ugh ... i have sniffles. bitch. bitch. bitch.
I'm just so insecure. and extremely sensitive lately. So if shawn says something that i'm already sensitive and insecure about; it just bums me out so much more. It's stuff i can't help. And i don't wanna take it out on him, but i think i already have. -sigh- I really, REALLY care for him. In a week and a half we'll be together for 4 months. It's not that long. But i'm really happy. But then ... it's mainly because of how he treated me in the beginning. And when i'm upset, it upsets him .... which just makes me feel worse. And it's then that i realize that we won't be together for as long as we say. And then i feel terrible. hahah. ridiculous.
Oh ... and according to David Spade "Cocaine is not birth control." He speaks the truth children. blah. I'm done. I need to get over it. And i should probably go to sleep so that this day will end sooner. time for meds. night kiddies.
I really want photoshop again. And some new fonts ... and brushes ... and stuff. heh. ugh ... i have sniffles. bitch. bitch. bitch.
I'm just so insecure. and extremely sensitive lately. So if shawn says something that i'm already sensitive and insecure about; it just bums me out so much more. It's stuff i can't help. And i don't wanna take it out on him, but i think i already have. -sigh- I really, REALLY care for him. In a week and a half we'll be together for 4 months. It's not that long. But i'm really happy. But then ... it's mainly because of how he treated me in the beginning. And when i'm upset, it upsets him .... which just makes me feel worse. And it's then that i realize that we won't be together for as long as we say. And then i feel terrible. hahah. ridiculous.
Oh ... and according to David Spade "Cocaine is not birth control." He speaks the truth children. blah. I'm done. I need to get over it. And i should probably go to sleep so that this day will end sooner. time for meds. night kiddies.