another chapter
Dear Journal.
Like I knew I would I caved! I talked to her!! We've hung out for the last few days! Kind of scary to be completely honest!! I mean it was wonderful and all!! But I find my self starting to really care about her!! Not this route again Rich, U know what happened last time you invested your emotions in her!! I'm setting my self up for failure!!
I finally convinced her to go talk to E M. She misses him, she talks about him rather frequently. My hypothesis is things will go back to nromal!! The way they use to be between them. I can't allow my self to start to care like that for her! When things are rekindled between them I can hopefully start to pull away!! Yesterday I was planning for V day for god sake! Wrong move kid, u think last time was bad just wait if u crash this time.
Weather sucks, it really really sucks.
Got a question god, why did u make me so gullible, so weak??
Saturday I got rocked, lost memory of the night. That was because I had like 8 pills! I'm not a popper, I have a really fucked up neck and back. I had some vodka.
Sunday Went out to eat with Chris, and then saw a movie in Pranjett's room. That was a nice day, I enjoyed!
I need to write myself a to do list!!
There's just some things I don't know how to say!!
Peace blindgod!!
Someone pray for me!
Like I knew I would I caved! I talked to her!! We've hung out for the last few days! Kind of scary to be completely honest!! I mean it was wonderful and all!! But I find my self starting to really care about her!! Not this route again Rich, U know what happened last time you invested your emotions in her!! I'm setting my self up for failure!!
I finally convinced her to go talk to E M. She misses him, she talks about him rather frequently. My hypothesis is things will go back to nromal!! The way they use to be between them. I can't allow my self to start to care like that for her! When things are rekindled between them I can hopefully start to pull away!! Yesterday I was planning for V day for god sake! Wrong move kid, u think last time was bad just wait if u crash this time.
Weather sucks, it really really sucks.
Got a question god, why did u make me so gullible, so weak??
Saturday I got rocked, lost memory of the night. That was because I had like 8 pills! I'm not a popper, I have a really fucked up neck and back. I had some vodka.
Sunday Went out to eat with Chris, and then saw a movie in Pranjett's room. That was a nice day, I enjoyed!
I need to write myself a to do list!!
There's just some things I don't know how to say!!
Peace blindgod!!
Someone pray for me!