Dec 06, 2005 00:54
the things i ruin for myself are a benefit to others. i fuck up, i loose good friends mainly because i keep important things to myself and because i can't control my whore ass. i have the worst timing. i hate myself. but whatever atleast now everythings out on the table. im sorry. so you can ignore me forever if you want, i deserve it. i just don't want to face what i did. so i'm not going to 3rd for the rest of my life.
BUT on a lighter note: tonight was random but perfect. i'm not going to jump into anything even though i already did... whatever happens happens, if we let it. it just might work out. this time i'll be a little confident but i'm not getting my hopes up. i have a feeling this is going to end up just like before.