I fucking hate myself
Have you ever just kinda roamed myspace just for the hell of it and then before you know it you end up on a page of someone who you really dont like but your curious of how they are doing and then you get to reading and looking and then something catches your eye and you start crying and getting depressed because you just seen a picture of that person and the one person you love and you realize they are together and you dont really know what to do? That is what I did tonight. I am still so in love with him and he knows it yet he tells me all the time im still his girl and yet he is with her. Although he knows all of the pain she has put me through in the past two and a half years and it makes me feel like he just wants me to hang. I feel like im being sufficated. I hate life so much right now and I just want to scream or even just blow my fucking head off. We were engaged and I was pregnant now look one week later and he is happy with someone else. What the hell am I chopped liver because thats what I feel like.......I hate like and at times like this I wish it would end.....I love him so fucking much and it has been a week later since I had a miscarriage and the mother fucker said the hell with me and has a new peice of meat. Is that not supposed to hurt me. What bugs me the most is that he still acts like nothing is wrong and that he is my best friend. I have given up on everything! I hate love this sucks and I think im going to just shut myself out from this world.