Life
Life's so frustrating sometimes. Its like, one minute, youre happy; everything in your life seems to be just a.o.kay, and its like hey, may life isnt too bad after all. Next minute, you remember something...maybe somethng that was due last week, maybe you miss someone, maybe you recall a horrible horrible time in your life, hey, maybe someone cuts you off in traffic..then youre just like, well shit. fuck that. life blows.
okay well maybe thats just me. i guess most of my frustration comes from a key 3 things; 1.) i havent takent drivers ed yet..meaning that im going to take it through the mail-in thing, which i havent actually signed up for. 2.) i havent presented my graduation project...which is the easiest thing ever, but i just havent done it so its just another hting on my mind, and 3.) COLLEGE
alright so i have my list of colleges together. i guess im happy with them? i dont know..im really not, but its there. er, here:
st. joes
west chester
unc-g(greensboro)
ecu (east carolina)
Pitt
temple
i really dont have much of a desire to go to any of them..with the exception of maybe pitt or uncg...but since i suck at everythign in life except for dance, thats what ive got. the only way i can possibly get money for school is if i major in dance; hence my choice of schools. but teh more and more i think of it, being a dance major is the last thing i truly want to do..i wanted to go to a solid liberal arts school, get a good, solid education, enjoy a normal life, and be able to dance in the school's company and take classes on my own time. but if i get scholarship for being a dance major (the only way to get money if youre a dancer) then thats what im going to do. im just unhappy about all of this. Right now, im looking forward to matt coming home on friday, then homecoming..then halloween, then my visit down to nc. I just want ot cry, and take some time to myself right now. no, iw ant to take some time for just matt and i, he alwas helps me make better choices, and find what i truly want inside. god i miss him.
okay well maybe thats just me. i guess most of my frustration comes from a key 3 things; 1.) i havent takent drivers ed yet..meaning that im going to take it through the mail-in thing, which i havent actually signed up for. 2.) i havent presented my graduation project...which is the easiest thing ever, but i just havent done it so its just another hting on my mind, and 3.) COLLEGE
alright so i have my list of colleges together. i guess im happy with them? i dont know..im really not, but its there. er, here:
st. joes
west chester
unc-g(greensboro)
ecu (east carolina)
Pitt
temple
i really dont have much of a desire to go to any of them..with the exception of maybe pitt or uncg...but since i suck at everythign in life except for dance, thats what ive got. the only way i can possibly get money for school is if i major in dance; hence my choice of schools. but teh more and more i think of it, being a dance major is the last thing i truly want to do..i wanted to go to a solid liberal arts school, get a good, solid education, enjoy a normal life, and be able to dance in the school's company and take classes on my own time. but if i get scholarship for being a dance major (the only way to get money if youre a dancer) then thats what im going to do. im just unhappy about all of this. Right now, im looking forward to matt coming home on friday, then homecoming..then halloween, then my visit down to nc. I just want ot cry, and take some time to myself right now. no, iw ant to take some time for just matt and i, he alwas helps me make better choices, and find what i truly want inside. god i miss him.