It starts from the bottom....
you're completely right. im sorry i took advantage of your emotional vulnerability. i of all people should know not to do that. i just felt that you had done that to me so many times and was being selfish in wanting you to feel that same hurt. i feel bad about telling you mean things like i would feel bad about telling anyone mean things. i am finally returning to the nice me again. i do not want to hurt anyone. when that "one day" arrives, i'll probably be around so dont hesitate. take care of yourself little feli. i'll remember you forever.
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From: Fletcher
Date: Oct 11, 2007 10:35 PM
you might want to try doing that and talking to me before I just add you and let you back in to my life. Saying those things before hand is usually a big help. So, not wanting to be around me but doing it just to avoid your mom IS USING me. When the whole time you could have asked one of your amazing, wealthy, helpful friends to house you.
Some of the things you said to me after we broke up are gonna take a lot of time for me to get past. you kicked me while I was down, intentionally, then blamed me for all of it. I want to be okay with you, too. You obviously didn't care as much for me as I did for you....that and you have had to pick up, move, and move on your whole life, you have had a lot of practice just forgetting about things and getting over them.....not I. I can't get over the fact that you don't like me as a person, that you think that I can never be loved again, that you used me, told me to get out and stay out of your life, and that all you did was lie and deceive me.....it seems to me that this is still the case and you have made no attempt to show me otherwise. Not to mention, I won't be added to your list of pretty girls.
The fact that you can go from not being able to separated from me to maybe wanting to talk to me or see me every once in a while atests to how you still think of me.
Don't take this the wrong way, but I'm not okay with you nor am I willing to know what's going on in your life, the things you are doing, or your progress of moving on. I'm not ready yet. I could have been, you haven't left me alone. I need to be left alone. As great as you made me believe we were together, that lie is not enough for me to lower my standards and subject myself to whatever it is you will dish out. I've said it before, said I wouldn't say it again, and I won't, but you know very well who I am not.....and I won't let you bring me down or walk all over me especially when I'm no longer with you. I'm not HER.
You hurt me beyond repair.
We might be okay again one day. Might. One day. Not today. I wish we could. But, not today. Sorry...if you even care, doubt it.
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From: ryan.
Date: Oct 10, 2007 11:38 PM
cause i just want things to be chill between us. i just want to clear things up and tell you im sorry for being mean to you. i needed to get away from you. i wasnt being myself. i felt so weird at your house for so long but i didnt want to be away from you or around my mom. im not trying to justify anything i did. i just want to be chill with you. thats all. maybe be able to talk to you on the phone occasionally and chill occasionally.
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From: Fletcher
Date: Oct 10, 2007 12:40 PM
What reason could you possibly have for adding a person you don't like and never want to talk to?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Fletcher
Date: Oct 11, 2007 10:35 PM
you might want to try doing that and talking to me before I just add you and let you back in to my life. Saying those things before hand is usually a big help. So, not wanting to be around me but doing it just to avoid your mom IS USING me. When the whole time you could have asked one of your amazing, wealthy, helpful friends to house you.
Some of the things you said to me after we broke up are gonna take a lot of time for me to get past. you kicked me while I was down, intentionally, then blamed me for all of it. I want to be okay with you, too. You obviously didn't care as much for me as I did for you....that and you have had to pick up, move, and move on your whole life, you have had a lot of practice just forgetting about things and getting over them.....not I. I can't get over the fact that you don't like me as a person, that you think that I can never be loved again, that you used me, told me to get out and stay out of your life, and that all you did was lie and deceive me.....it seems to me that this is still the case and you have made no attempt to show me otherwise. Not to mention, I won't be added to your list of pretty girls.
The fact that you can go from not being able to separated from me to maybe wanting to talk to me or see me every once in a while atests to how you still think of me.
Don't take this the wrong way, but I'm not okay with you nor am I willing to know what's going on in your life, the things you are doing, or your progress of moving on. I'm not ready yet. I could have been, you haven't left me alone. I need to be left alone. As great as you made me believe we were together, that lie is not enough for me to lower my standards and subject myself to whatever it is you will dish out. I've said it before, said I wouldn't say it again, and I won't, but you know very well who I am not.....and I won't let you bring me down or walk all over me especially when I'm no longer with you. I'm not HER.
You hurt me beyond repair.
We might be okay again one day. Might. One day. Not today. I wish we could. But, not today. Sorry...if you even care, doubt it.
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From: ryan.
Date: Oct 10, 2007 11:38 PM
cause i just want things to be chill between us. i just want to clear things up and tell you im sorry for being mean to you. i needed to get away from you. i wasnt being myself. i felt so weird at your house for so long but i didnt want to be away from you or around my mom. im not trying to justify anything i did. i just want to be chill with you. thats all. maybe be able to talk to you on the phone occasionally and chill occasionally.
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From: Fletcher
Date: Oct 10, 2007 12:40 PM
What reason could you possibly have for adding a person you don't like and never want to talk to?