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[blindastoria]

I feel hopeless and disapointed. I am looking through a bunch of sites on the refugee situation in and around Burma. The problem is that words and images don't depict the pain and anguish these people live through. I am supposed to help make this poster on refugee awareness, but I don't know how to convey the tragedy in words or on paper. I don't know how to really get to that part of a persons soul where they'll actually stop and look and be impacted. It's so frustrating. You just think of all those times that you've just walked by an important display and thought wow, that's nuts, and never really let it sink in. Never really thought about it long enough to let it impact and influence your life. Now I feel like I'm sitting at that booth, desperately trying to get a message across, but people are just brushing the messages off. They're too depressing, not the type of thing you want to think about on a Friday afternoon. This is before the display is even up. It is such an awesome and wicked opportunity to even be able to be a part of this, and I'm so disapointed and we haven't even started. It's bad that I feel this way, like I somehow feel less ignorant because I've seen some of the people first hand, but the fact is that I'm not doing anything about it right now?! I'm not sending them money, I'm just telling more people that they should be doing something about it. And really it feels quite hypocritical right now.

I was so frustrated about school last year because I felt like I should be doing something important for the rest of the world. Then I went out, saw the problems, tried to help in whatever limited way I could, and I'm back here, educating myself so hopefully someday I'll go back and help? I'm mad at myself lol.

hmmph.