to josh
your strength, gives me strength. i know i get pissy sometimes... but thats only because i feel really weak and i need your words to give me strength again. weird sounding, i know, but with everything going on in my life right now, some which i have not told you, i feel like everything around me is falling apart. when i talk to you on the phone i sometimes get weird and its only because your the only one in my life who i feel comfortable, or even can, open up to and let out my feelings, sometimes i let out the wrong feelings that have been buried inside of me. it is so hard to have to walk around all day pretending like nothing is wrong, while letting everyone walk all over me. i hate it but what i hate most is not being able to do anything about it. so thankyou, even though i know you dont know that you have helped me, you really have. just try to deal with me, and i promise it will get better. i can t wait to see you in either august or september. you mean everything to me.
we tear people up, inside and out.
we tear people up, inside and out.