Ave Maria

[blind_afinity]

I always thought that not believing in an afterlife would psychologically cripple me in the long run. Well that hypothesis was put to the test last week in quite an abrupt way. Fortunately it turns out that the mind has a very unique way of adapting to these things and so actually knowing, in my own belief, that the end is the end makes my memories of her come alive to me in a very inexplicable way. I took out of storage all those little thoughts and experiences that i had and am now able to recall them very vividly. As one can imagine it helps tremendously with dealing. Not to mention the people that comfort u in such extreme situations. A sincere thank you to everyone, including those who didnt even know about it that helped lift my spirits.

Other than the recent goings on, i'm doin peachy keen. no real room to complain. still going through those changes and understandings. im seeing things more clearly as days pass and things happen. I've had some disappointing experiences regarding friends or those who i thought to be such which i cant help feel kinda sad about. I figure something will stem out of it all, eventually; better yet it might all just be a misunderstanding.

Thanks again.

-Me