New day
*Mad thanks to Tony for helping me get my new TV yesterday--the box was much too big to fit into my car--thanks man!
School started today. It was much too crowded. I felt like a piece of cattle being herded, but I guess that isn't too far from the truth. Here's an excerpt of something I wrote while I waited for class to start:
"Been so long since I've been in school. I forgot how much I hate it. So many people. Some know where they're going, some think they know, others don't have a fucking clue. I don't mean 'going' as in an office cubicle, behind a computer, nice car, or hot girlfriend/wife, all that is bullshit..."
I was then interupted by my buddy Carl, who has the same class...Psychology of Racial Prejudice. I'd like to finish that thought, however...
I mean "going", as in where they are going in this society that says success is granted at the end of a certain road. Also, that success is measured by material things that are easily assimilated into lazy human standards. Car, college degree, family, attractive spouse or significant other, attractive appearance, stablility, responsibility to society, respectable occupation, middle-class idealism, middle-class normalcy, going to the mall on the weekend, spending money at the movies, contributing to the American way of life, for that is the only way of life. It's so sick. In a society of voyeurism, we live our lives through the eyes of others. I am guiltier than any. It surely disgusts me. The point is, I'm tired of compromising. I don't like doing something just because someone says I should. I don't like denying what I believe for the convenience of others. I won't anymore. I won't discuss what I mean. It's probably more than anyone here needs to know, or that I care to explain.
School started today. It was much too crowded. I felt like a piece of cattle being herded, but I guess that isn't too far from the truth. Here's an excerpt of something I wrote while I waited for class to start:
"Been so long since I've been in school. I forgot how much I hate it. So many people. Some know where they're going, some think they know, others don't have a fucking clue. I don't mean 'going' as in an office cubicle, behind a computer, nice car, or hot girlfriend/wife, all that is bullshit..."
I was then interupted by my buddy Carl, who has the same class...Psychology of Racial Prejudice. I'd like to finish that thought, however...
I mean "going", as in where they are going in this society that says success is granted at the end of a certain road. Also, that success is measured by material things that are easily assimilated into lazy human standards. Car, college degree, family, attractive spouse or significant other, attractive appearance, stablility, responsibility to society, respectable occupation, middle-class idealism, middle-class normalcy, going to the mall on the weekend, spending money at the movies, contributing to the American way of life, for that is the only way of life. It's so sick. In a society of voyeurism, we live our lives through the eyes of others. I am guiltier than any. It surely disgusts me. The point is, I'm tired of compromising. I don't like doing something just because someone says I should. I don't like denying what I believe for the convenience of others. I won't anymore. I won't discuss what I mean. It's probably more than anyone here needs to know, or that I care to explain.