It's something unpredictable but in the end is right....
There are a million thoughts going through my head. It's WORLD class. It's a WORLD class guard now. I'm an age out, and now that is all I have left. It's literally ALL or nothing. If I don't spin.. what am I going to do? That is all I have known since I was 12. Life was spinning and dancing. I'm scared. Sunday decides the rest of my life. Am I as good as everyone says? Will I be able to take control of my nerves? Will I be able to have ONE more shot to spin with out chains to be free across the floor? I get so nervous at times at the auditions that I can't even move. It's so hard to perform when you can't even think straight because your nerves are so shot. I have to get over that. I have to over come all of that. I cannot allow my fears to keep my from performing at least one more time. It's my time. It's my season.. It's my time to break from the hell I have been through... and just spin...