cannot sleep sooooooooooo....
....here i am on LJ. it's 1:30 am and I have to get up tomorrow around 8 am (I know, that's not terribly early) for a job interview. oh yea, i got a job interview at a school. a fucking school. for the orchestra teacher job!! i'm super super psyched and i hope i get the job because right now i really need it. my car is on its last leg, my dad isn't doing terribly great at work so money is super tight, and i need a job. lol anyway i had a mocha tapioca around 9 pm and i'm still going. i'm going to crash tomorrow night! at least i hope i do.
anyway, a pic or two of me and my honey while he was in town...
i'm so glad he came home. i was beginning to think that i wasn't on his priority list, even though i know he's a marine and it's a tough biz...it's tough being in different jobs, in different time zones, and on different continents. i know that when you have orders, well, you've got orders and there's nothing you can do about it. we had talked about him coming home for christmas to surprise his family, and then he tells me that he's got a training thing to go to, causing him to postpone coming home...then decides he's not coming home at all, saying it's pointless once you've got less than a year, blah blah blah, and i'm thinking WTF? why don't you want to come home to see me? don't you miss me? and we had this conversation over and over again until i finally gave up and said watever. i cannot even begin to describe how i felt when i saw him standing there at my graduation in uniform. every little bit of doubt that i had is completely gone. my insecurities - gone. i have been messed up in one particular past relationship where i thought everything was going right but wasn't, so when everything is going right in this one of course i freak out. but after that, i have no doubts about anything. i know now exactly where i stand and i'm 100% confident about us. so what's another 10 months compared to the hellish 14 we went without seeing each other? i tell you what, you go 14 months without seeing each other and you make it, anything is possible. :)
i think the coffee is wearing out. wish me luck on my interview!! good night!
anyway, a pic or two of me and my honey while he was in town...
i'm so glad he came home. i was beginning to think that i wasn't on his priority list, even though i know he's a marine and it's a tough biz...it's tough being in different jobs, in different time zones, and on different continents. i know that when you have orders, well, you've got orders and there's nothing you can do about it. we had talked about him coming home for christmas to surprise his family, and then he tells me that he's got a training thing to go to, causing him to postpone coming home...then decides he's not coming home at all, saying it's pointless once you've got less than a year, blah blah blah, and i'm thinking WTF? why don't you want to come home to see me? don't you miss me? and we had this conversation over and over again until i finally gave up and said watever. i cannot even begin to describe how i felt when i saw him standing there at my graduation in uniform. every little bit of doubt that i had is completely gone. my insecurities - gone. i have been messed up in one particular past relationship where i thought everything was going right but wasn't, so when everything is going right in this one of course i freak out. but after that, i have no doubts about anything. i know now exactly where i stand and i'm 100% confident about us. so what's another 10 months compared to the hellish 14 we went without seeing each other? i tell you what, you go 14 months without seeing each other and you make it, anything is possible. :)
i think the coffee is wearing out. wish me luck on my interview!! good night!