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[bleuchik11]

life just sucks. i know that i'm supposed to be there for him, but who the hell is supposed to be there for me? i miss him. i hate this feeling.

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[fragile_kiss]

aww, hang in there & stay strong<3

how much longer til your man comes home?

[bleuchik11]

i don't know. he wants to come home in december but he's saying that they're gonna switch him to a different shop and that he might deploy before then. so i don't know when he'll be home. :(

this is so hard, and no one warns you about the pain. everyone tells you "you know you signed up for this right?" except no one really knows how you feel.

i'm glad you got to talk to your hubby!! :)

[fragile_kiss]

boo, that sucks! & theres no way you can go visit him? just keep your fingers crossed that he gets to come home in december.

i know, you go into it knowing it'll be hard, but theres no way to know just how hard it'll ACTUALLY be. i hate when people respond by saying "well you signed up for this." like i said, just stay strong :]

[bleuchik11]

well, it's so expensive and with my parents the way they are, it's even harder to try and go.

did you ever feel like just throwing in the towel? i hate that i feel like that sometimes.

[fragile_kiss]

i know, traveling is so expensive. when i went to visit my hubby about a year ago (i realize it was only alabama) we split the cost and i completely lied to my parents. i was so nervous i was going to get caught. japan however is a whole other story. i know how it feels when it gets so overwhelming, but if you feel he's worth the wait, you'll overcome all obstacles :]

i dont know what else to say besides, hang in there. <3

[bleuchik11]

i've thought about lying about japan, but there's no lie big enough that'll get me through that one. lol

<3 thanks. it doesn't help that i'm also PMS-ing. :(

[fragile_kiss]

you could always say you're going with a couple of friends, but yeah.. idk about that one. it just seems like too much of a risk.

[bleuchik11]

yea it is too big a risk that we're both well aware of so we're fighting our way through this. there are some days though where the distance and the non-communication business just really gets to me, and i'm sure it really gets to him too.

how are you doing with the deployment?

[fragile_kiss]

i'm actually doing better than i thought, but it probably has to do with the fact that we get to talk everyday. otherwise i'm not sure i'd be doing as well as i am.

[bleuchik11]

omg that's great. yea i'd be a wreck if i were in your shoes. *hugs* how long is his deployment?

[fragile_kiss]

yeah its tough, but i'm just trying to stay strong.
his deployment is 12 months, & he just left :/