Some subject
As of recently, my mother is pestering me for a new picture. Her reason being is because she wants some updated ones. Yeah, the pictures she carries around of us was taken, like three, four years ago. My brother has given her one and so has my sister, so that pretty much leaves me.
Why don't I just give her one? Well, see... that's the problem. I cannot just giver her any kind of picture. For one, I really don't enjoy taking pictures of myself and if I do... it takes me a while to pick one out because not all of them come out looking good, well, that's what I think at least.
So I have some self-esteem issues and I'm working on that. Sure, sometimes I wish I were those who just loved themselves no matter how they look to others.
Just because I'm not happy with myself 100% of the time does not mean I let others trample me over. Damnit, I have self-respect, dignity and whatnot!
Really, I usually come out looking like a self-confident person whenever I'm in the street. That's good, because no one really knows how I really feel from within.... well, except those who have just read this part. But that's what counts right? To let others believe you are happy with yourself 100% of the time.
I really should have taken drama back when I was in high school, I am sure I would have made a good actress. Alas, it was not meant to be... if it weren't for the fact that I'm quite shy... That's just the beginning, once I get to know someone, I'm completely the opposite.
That's just the wonderful thing of being a Cancer... but no... I'm not an emotional individual. I'm really trying to steer away from that.
Mind you, just because I come off sounding like... I'unno... something that does not mean I cannot kick your ass. Be it physical or verbal.
But of course, my lovely Lj-friends, you will not have to see that part of me. Mainly so because uh.. you are somewhere else in this part of the world? Yeah, that's pretty much it.
So I have noticed that I did not stick to what I was writing at the beginning, the whole picture and stuff. So yeah, in the end I'll give her that one picture that I'm comfortable of giving away aka looking good. Heh.
[mood|
accomplished]
Why don't I just give her one? Well, see... that's the problem. I cannot just giver her any kind of picture. For one, I really don't enjoy taking pictures of myself and if I do... it takes me a while to pick one out because not all of them come out looking good, well, that's what I think at least.
So I have some self-esteem issues and I'm working on that. Sure, sometimes I wish I were those who just loved themselves no matter how they look to others.
Just because I'm not happy with myself 100% of the time does not mean I let others trample me over. Damnit, I have self-respect, dignity and whatnot!
Really, I usually come out looking like a self-confident person whenever I'm in the street. That's good, because no one really knows how I really feel from within.... well, except those who have just read this part. But that's what counts right? To let others believe you are happy with yourself 100% of the time.
I really should have taken drama back when I was in high school, I am sure I would have made a good actress. Alas, it was not meant to be... if it weren't for the fact that I'm quite shy... That's just the beginning, once I get to know someone, I'm completely the opposite.
That's just the wonderful thing of being a Cancer... but no... I'm not an emotional individual. I'm really trying to steer away from that.
Mind you, just because I come off sounding like... I'unno... something that does not mean I cannot kick your ass. Be it physical or verbal.
But of course, my lovely Lj-friends, you will not have to see that part of me. Mainly so because uh.. you are somewhere else in this part of the world? Yeah, that's pretty much it.
So I have noticed that I did not stick to what I was writing at the beginning, the whole picture and stuff. So yeah, in the end I'll give her that one picture that I'm comfortable of giving away aka looking good. Heh.
[mood|
accomplished]