whatever walks in my heart will walk alone
Eh I don't know today was a sucky day..I got a really bad test grade in my anatomy test...I felt kind of ignored by people..more than usual. Like I wasn't even sitting or standing there. And I'm still dateless for the prom...hell I'll probably never get one anyway. I'm not anything special in any way..so why would I matter? Nothing I have ever done or tried to do means something to someone. I try to be helpful and nice to people I like because that's just what I do. But it never seems to matter to them. Sometimes I just want to run away and dissapear...just to see what would happen. Would anyone care that I suddenly dissapeared? What if I dissapeared forever and became a roamer...a vagabond? Cut off ties with everyone I know..and not just from where I live..but from everyone else that I might know. Would they even care? Eh probably not...it isn't like they SEE me from day to day anyway. No one would know my name...who I am or was...only thing theyll judge is the dirt on my hair and the dust on my back. Oh...what a blissful existence that could be...not to care about anyone anymore...to stop worrying and caring about others..even though now that's what I do practically every minute I'm awake...but I never get anything back. Wouldn't be funny if I just get up tommorow..go to school and say my goodbyes..and make it seem like someone kidnapped me..then just dissapear from everyone's lives forever...