Catching up on 4 years of life
Hello Livejournal. My iPhone 6s Plus is awfully heavy for me to type my blog entry. But I will sustain that weight for it excites me to update my ignored blog. It's like trying to catch up with an old friend you haven't spoken to in years. You kind of want to talk to that person but then you're also busy with other things but still you just want to catch up with that friend no matter what.
I'm not sure how much I can remember about my past four years. I might just go random here. Nobody reads this anyway..
From what I recall, the seed did not flourish. I thought that person loved me. Maybe he did but he didn't speak my love language and so I had to end it. I kind of feel sorry for him because he moved from OZ to NZ to be with me. I realised later that he just needed to get married because of family pressure. Our moms were secretly plotting our engagement dates without letting me know. Unfortunately for them and fortunately for me, the relationship didn't work out. I couldn't stand his personality. I can just imagine how unhappy I would be. I never missed him. And I never shed a tear for him. But I hope he's doing well.
Just before the breakup with him I also broke up with my not so nice boss at work. I passed my CA that year and it was time for me to move on to better career prospects and not suffer anymore within the toxic work environment. I broke into tears when I delivered my leaving speech. There were too many memories.. There were too many lovely people I had to leave behind.. I didn't realise I would get that emotional the whole afternoon even after I got home. It was a journey I won't forget.
Fast forward to six months, I finally found a job at a property company. They are the top of the game. I was very honoured to have worked there. Management was very professional I was very delighted. I had to leave after 13 months because my brother was going to get married and my family plans to migrate to oz.
This is the time when things got really interesting for me. Not interesting but this is when I totally lost it. I lost my direction. I had no idea what I need to do. Or what I want to do. I became my family's puppet. They tell me what I need to do. And I do it. I was absorbed in a vortex that I couldn't get myself out of.
All families have problems. And family members need to help out not only when they can. They just have to help. Otherwise no ones going to help.
During this time I got to spend a lot of time with my mom. We got into sooo many arguments. It's like I've become a teenager again. But I love her no matter what. And i know she loves me more.
After almost two years I decided it's time to leave my family and actually follow through the plan of moving to oz. My favourite sister is in oz waiting for me. Poor her she had to live on her own for nearly four years.
What do I have to say about oz? It's not entirely very different to NZ. A lot of the things and shops are the same. But I find it big. Australia is huge compared to NZ. I live in Brisbane at the moment. And I saw a live snake on the road I was walking on the other day. OMG! Freaked me out.
My sister has friends here so I just have to be friends with them too :) some of my previous Uni friends are here in oz too but they are either in Sydney or Melbourne.
I'm currently jobless that's why I have time to compose this useful entry. But I'm just doing this so that I have something to read and recall and reminisce when I forget my past. I tend to purge a lot of memories for some reason.. And I don't keep a physical diary anymore. I haven't kept it since ages. Oh did I tell you. My high school lover just had a baby this month as well. Boy I was so happy for him. And I know and I know now that obsession is a choice just like love is a choice. But attraction is not. I'm so over him and it's so freeing. The feeling of being unattached completely is the best. That is why we must always be aware of our thoughts and feelings and be in control of it so as not to suffer.
I'm recently into understanding non Christian religions. Good luck in me trying to find the truth. Being a truth seeker was never my goal. But I just don't want to just believe in lies.
And my goal is to be a vegan by end of this year. I started last month. And I'm loving it. I think being vegan helps me in my health. And even if there were organic milk, organic honey, organic eggs, they all come from animals or insects and they suffer when we take those away from them. Cows cry because the milk is supposed to be for their calves. Bees get crushed in the process of the honey making. They even get raped. And everything becomes really unnatural when humans intervene. I just don't want it anymore.
Hmm I've made a reasonably good progress in this entry. I was going to talk about a person. But maybe not. I'm just confused about him atm. Let's leave it when I get more head space.
Ciao. I love my nephew. He's the most wonderful thing. Xoxo
I'm not sure how much I can remember about my past four years. I might just go random here. Nobody reads this anyway..
From what I recall, the seed did not flourish. I thought that person loved me. Maybe he did but he didn't speak my love language and so I had to end it. I kind of feel sorry for him because he moved from OZ to NZ to be with me. I realised later that he just needed to get married because of family pressure. Our moms were secretly plotting our engagement dates without letting me know. Unfortunately for them and fortunately for me, the relationship didn't work out. I couldn't stand his personality. I can just imagine how unhappy I would be. I never missed him. And I never shed a tear for him. But I hope he's doing well.
Just before the breakup with him I also broke up with my not so nice boss at work. I passed my CA that year and it was time for me to move on to better career prospects and not suffer anymore within the toxic work environment. I broke into tears when I delivered my leaving speech. There were too many memories.. There were too many lovely people I had to leave behind.. I didn't realise I would get that emotional the whole afternoon even after I got home. It was a journey I won't forget.
Fast forward to six months, I finally found a job at a property company. They are the top of the game. I was very honoured to have worked there. Management was very professional I was very delighted. I had to leave after 13 months because my brother was going to get married and my family plans to migrate to oz.
This is the time when things got really interesting for me. Not interesting but this is when I totally lost it. I lost my direction. I had no idea what I need to do. Or what I want to do. I became my family's puppet. They tell me what I need to do. And I do it. I was absorbed in a vortex that I couldn't get myself out of.
All families have problems. And family members need to help out not only when they can. They just have to help. Otherwise no ones going to help.
During this time I got to spend a lot of time with my mom. We got into sooo many arguments. It's like I've become a teenager again. But I love her no matter what. And i know she loves me more.
After almost two years I decided it's time to leave my family and actually follow through the plan of moving to oz. My favourite sister is in oz waiting for me. Poor her she had to live on her own for nearly four years.
What do I have to say about oz? It's not entirely very different to NZ. A lot of the things and shops are the same. But I find it big. Australia is huge compared to NZ. I live in Brisbane at the moment. And I saw a live snake on the road I was walking on the other day. OMG! Freaked me out.
My sister has friends here so I just have to be friends with them too :) some of my previous Uni friends are here in oz too but they are either in Sydney or Melbourne.
I'm currently jobless that's why I have time to compose this useful entry. But I'm just doing this so that I have something to read and recall and reminisce when I forget my past. I tend to purge a lot of memories for some reason.. And I don't keep a physical diary anymore. I haven't kept it since ages. Oh did I tell you. My high school lover just had a baby this month as well. Boy I was so happy for him. And I know and I know now that obsession is a choice just like love is a choice. But attraction is not. I'm so over him and it's so freeing. The feeling of being unattached completely is the best. That is why we must always be aware of our thoughts and feelings and be in control of it so as not to suffer.
I'm recently into understanding non Christian religions. Good luck in me trying to find the truth. Being a truth seeker was never my goal. But I just don't want to just believe in lies.
And my goal is to be a vegan by end of this year. I started last month. And I'm loving it. I think being vegan helps me in my health. And even if there were organic milk, organic honey, organic eggs, they all come from animals or insects and they suffer when we take those away from them. Cows cry because the milk is supposed to be for their calves. Bees get crushed in the process of the honey making. They even get raped. And everything becomes really unnatural when humans intervene. I just don't want it anymore.
Hmm I've made a reasonably good progress in this entry. I was going to talk about a person. But maybe not. I'm just confused about him atm. Let's leave it when I get more head space.
Ciao. I love my nephew. He's the most wonderful thing. Xoxo