screaming
i went to bed last night thinking that i'd really like to scream at the top of my lungs. it might be because i haven't had complete use of my throat for the past four days or it could be this constant feeling of restraint I'm dealing with. I find myself laying in bed, with nobody around, and I'll stop myself just as I start to say something to somebody who isn't even there. So instead of saying anything I think I'd feel a hell of a lot better if I could just let loose and scream really really loud. This may sound crazy, but bear with me... have you ever stretched your ear? I mean physically taken hold of your ear and bent it in all sorts of directions? You may think I'm completely insane but try it sometime, when you're done you'll suddenly be aware of just how badly you needed that little, seemingly insignificant, stretch. I think the yelling thing is kind of like that. Some people fail to see what value screaming can really have. Of course, yelling by yourself is one thing but yelling in the company of another person seems to be something entirely different. I wish it wouldn't hurt too many peoples' ears if I just screamed once in a very long while. I wish i could... thats all.