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so yesterday the 30 my family life got ruined and im expected to leave asap.i have no money no car and kinda no home. saturday im legal and im taking my life in my hands and i will make something of myself i will not fall like the rest of my family and settle with whats given to you i Will work for something. something i dont know. i love joey and i want to move in with him RIGHT Now but i dont have a car. im still in college here and i have a job (soon to be 2 hopefully) here
i dont know i give up things go from bad to worst in this house, from a fight to a possibly hospitalization and yeah that makes me feel like an ass hole. she claims i ran away... but i came home that night, she knew where i was its sad to say but i want the father to come home just so theres a middle person and its not so hostile here but that could back fire on me and it be 2 against one and one of those happy mother fucking birthday your kicked out of the house kind of things. why is it when im finally happy this shit happens. i guess i brought it upon myself and i WONT blame anyone for this. i am an asshole. i dont think im a good person. i have to deal with what i "get" myself into so i am it might not be whats right or smart but everyone has to learn to deal with there mistakes and the things that are put upon them and thats what im gonna do
i cant sleep. im worried. i dont know
i dont know i give up things go from bad to worst in this house, from a fight to a possibly hospitalization and yeah that makes me feel like an ass hole. she claims i ran away... but i came home that night, she knew where i was its sad to say but i want the father to come home just so theres a middle person and its not so hostile here but that could back fire on me and it be 2 against one and one of those happy mother fucking birthday your kicked out of the house kind of things. why is it when im finally happy this shit happens. i guess i brought it upon myself and i WONT blame anyone for this. i am an asshole. i dont think im a good person. i have to deal with what i "get" myself into so i am it might not be whats right or smart but everyone has to learn to deal with there mistakes and the things that are put upon them and thats what im gonna do
i cant sleep. im worried. i dont know