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pretty shitty day ... no car for me hopefully tuesday maybe prolly not atleast with my luck recentlly. yeah at amandas .... i LOVE her verry much she makes me feel better when im all down like i have been the past couple of days i hope i get over this bullshit. i hate being all whiney and shit i actually cryed i cant remeber the last time i did i think it was when my grandmother died 5 years i mean ive cryed since just its hard to explain i dont know i feel helpless and i guess im frightened by that i feel weak and vonurable (sp?) i think im actually scared and i dont know why i know no one reads this or atleast i dont think anyone reads it and i think writing my problems here where if you dont wanna know or care you can just stop reading or tell me to stop bitching about my life and suck it up like always until i feel like im going to burst with goddamn emotions. i just want to get all this out, and these family issuse recently are NOT helping anything, and recent events with some of my frineds and yeah im gonna stop bitching and smoke.