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[blesseddumbfuck]

I do not understand this flood at all.

So instead of voicing my opinion about why everyone should remain calm, I'll talk about something much more important: Boat comas. The scourge of the Barge

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It only hurts when I--

[feels_no_love]

*cough cough cough*

[Low, rasping laughter]

Welcome back, Biff. You were missed.

Re: It only hurts when I--

[blesseddumbfuck]

[Concern~!]

Dracula, you sound terrible.

[feels_no_love]

I will recover. I am very good at healing, and it was not a result of conflict. It is just something I have to deal with.

How are you feeling? You missed our little big-hats and handguns party. I had a drawl.

[blesseddumbfuck]

I am very disappointed I missed it. Can you pretend to have the drawl now? Let me hear how you sounded.

[feels_no_love]

I think I would have to stuff my nose and practice in front of a mirror to do it properly.

But I think you would have liked him. It was far easier for me to get along with others as him.

[blesseddumbfuck]

I like you as you are. You are my friend. But he would have been interesting to meet.

[feels_no_love]

Thank you for that. I am in a better position to appreciate that now than I was before.

[blesseddumbfuck]

Why is that?

[feels_no_love]

Humans feel things fully. I was human for a little while. I now have some kind of reference point for emotions now, for the first time in over four hundred years.

[He still can't feel things clearly aside from a few emotions, but at least now he knows a bit more about how friendship feels and how it is expressed.]

[blesseddumbfuck]

That is wonderful!

What do you know how to feel?

[feels_no_love]

Well, I...it isn't that I know how to feel them now. Some of them, I wish I did. There is a warmth in one's chest that comes with friendship that makes it easier to remember what to do for that friend. To consider them becomes easy.

And love for family was there was well. I had a brother and two nieces. Their concerns were my concerns. It was only completely natural. I didn't have to remind myself.

[But romantic love...had had him hiding from the prospect of feeling for days after the Breach.]

[blesseddumbfuck]

I like the love of friendship. It makes everything easier, you know. The world isn't as difficult when you have friendship.

[And he has to ask, because he's Biff:]

What about romantic love?

[feels_no_love]

I begin to understand....

[Big wince.]

I...

Are you certain you wish to know? It's not a pleasant story.

Private

[blesseddumbfuck]

Yes, of course. We can talk in private and I will not tell anyone.

Private

[feels_no_love]

I now know what it truly is to mourn a wife. The man was a widower and war-shocked, and missed her every day. But then another woman finally started warming his heart. Yet this woman was a decent woman and he a broken man dabbling in drunkenness; he did not feel good enough for her. So he hesitated in marrying her even after they became lovers.

He spoke to the Reverend--Howie, a decent man even if his dogma irks me--and decided to come clean with her and ask her if she would marry him once he was ready. But before he could...a would-be rapist shot her in the back.

I have felt physical agonies before, but not emotional ones. Not since I was a young boy.

Private

[blesseddumbfuck]

That is a terrible story, Dracula.

Howie is an odd man. I'm not sure if I like him. He is very devout, but also very judgmental, and Juh-

[Cough.]

I do not think the Messiah would have liked that, considering what I know from his teachings.

Now you know what it is to love, and what it is to lose love. Do you still hurt? I think this was a good thing for you, you know. To learn what it is to feel these things. Now you can learn to feel them for others, like Persephone.