*sigh*
I'm not quite sure how to put this... But I feel like I don't know who I am anymore.
The past 3 1/2 years of my life have felt like a lie, I can't believe just as I thought I was comfortable with who I was, this goes and happens and I'm left without a clue to my existance. I can't believe because of him, I've felt like I've lost one of the most important chunks of my life that I'm never going to get back. Since our parting, I have honestly never felt so alone. Ok, yes, my friends have been there for me, but It's not the same. I long to feel strong loving arms around me to hold me up, and soft tender kisses to keep me going, from someone I truly love. I don't have these, hense the fact I'm falling apart.
I don't want to get up in the morning, I just want to be alone with my thoughts, food has no taste anymore, my smile feels fake, my soul feels empty, and my heart aches... ALL the time. It feels like there is a massive chasm running right down the middle of me, filled with molten lava. The only feeling I can depict out of the mess that is me at the moment, is anger. Pure unadulterated rage.
I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS, but I just can't stop.
Living life through my eyes at the moment feels like a broken mirror... Shattered.
The past 3 1/2 years of my life have felt like a lie, I can't believe just as I thought I was comfortable with who I was, this goes and happens and I'm left without a clue to my existance. I can't believe because of him, I've felt like I've lost one of the most important chunks of my life that I'm never going to get back. Since our parting, I have honestly never felt so alone. Ok, yes, my friends have been there for me, but It's not the same. I long to feel strong loving arms around me to hold me up, and soft tender kisses to keep me going, from someone I truly love. I don't have these, hense the fact I'm falling apart.
I don't want to get up in the morning, I just want to be alone with my thoughts, food has no taste anymore, my smile feels fake, my soul feels empty, and my heart aches... ALL the time. It feels like there is a massive chasm running right down the middle of me, filled with molten lava. The only feeling I can depict out of the mess that is me at the moment, is anger. Pure unadulterated rage.
I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS, but I just can't stop.
Living life through my eyes at the moment feels like a broken mirror... Shattered.