Hmm
i want it to be november already. matt came out for the weekend and i got to see him for two days which rocked, hung out with him and some friends. i love being his girlfriend, i really do, theres nothing better. he just makes me happy. but its hard when he's so far away. but he'll be back in a couple weeks. three and a half and its ok. but its like teasing a fat kid with a cupcake. in which case i'm the fat kid and he's my cupcake. i cried all day today cuz he left this afternoon. it was brutal, i missed church too. the rains being stupid. november, november, i never thought i would be excited for winter lol. i'm going to move to the city and he's going to help me i'm going to find a really nice place to stay cuz now melissa is going to thailand or that one place where they had the tsunami...taiwan? i think so. anyway she's going there for a year or six months or something. so i'll have to find somewhere else to live. by myself most likely. oh well i don't really mind. i'll have visitors and stuff and i can walk around nekkid. nobody will know. its good. yeah so i'll move to the city and get a job at a bank most likely, if not, not sure where. i could really move up in a bank. its not like its really all that hard or anything. ah well. figure it out when it happens. i'm not sure how to go about looking for a place even. i'd like something closer to kenaston. maybe, or even another condo in st. mary's. we'll see. don't have to start looking just yet. i just want it to be time to move. i'm thinkin when matt comes home i'll fly out there to drive back with him. if he wants and if he's going to be alone otherwise. i'll see what his plans are. i can't believe i'm already thinking of that right now, its been like, forty days. actually forty-five to be exact. only like, 120some more days to go. hurry the frik up. well its not like i didn't know this was going to happen. we knew. it just kinda sucks. we're like a third done so thats not too bad. and i mean, i see him in a few more weeks, and then i go to europe for 2 weeks and that will just fly by, and then i'll see if i can take a weekend so we can celebrate six months together and then i'll see him in the end of sept. beginning of october and then a month later he comes home. he comes home. i can't wait. it'll be such a good day. just to know that i can drive for only an hour and some just to see him. and that i'll be moving shortly and then it'll be just 10 or 15 minutes to see him. i love being with him. he makes me so happy. when he looks at me with his funny faces, or he helps me put aloe vera gel on my sunburn and he feels so bad for me. he's the sweetest guy in the world and i wouldn't trade him in for anything. sigh. so mushy.