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soo yea, whats up?
not a lot here got home bout 1/2 hour ago... i was at buddahs playin with the kisd and whatnot....thats all i do lately is be over there, i hope i dont bother her but im a looser...
soo yea...i need to make friends ever since a lot of shit happened i put like 1 person infront of eevryone else..and thats not helping me do shit..it gets me to where im in a pissed off mood all the time and i cant say nething cuz they will get all mad at how i feel...so yea i need some new friends
this weekend i was supposed to hang out with tammy but then she made other plans with other people so that doesnt seem like its going to happen.. so friday im like not doing anything...saturday im going to school and then anthonys birthday party after that..hes 3 now and hes gettin a pimp party..WTF...anyways and then sunday its back to doing nothing...i mean do you get it..i do nothing...because i wait.. and i shouldnt do that but thats just how it seems to be for me..i get fucked over. my ma trys to kick me out i get fucked over on everything and ya know what sux is i never really realized how manny people i have shut out...so i guess from now on i wont wait and ill see how far that gets me...because waiting just pisses me off..
she knows this is about her and i know im gonna hear about it and i dont want to but shit happens...but i dont know how to talk to you anymore...i dont even know what to say to you. because im so afraid of you blowing up at me...and your my best friend and like my only friend that i have..and i dont want to risk loosing that but it might not matter now...i just want you to know...id go through hell and back for you because thats how much of a best friend you are to me...and i have gone through a lot and not just for you but ive tried my damndest to help you...i dont know if you see it or not...but i do! and i dont want thanks i dont want you to jump up and down about it...but i would like to know where everythings going now!
anyways now that im gonna hear about it im gonna go becasue theres no sence in sitting here in a bad mood...PEACE!
not a lot here got home bout 1/2 hour ago... i was at buddahs playin with the kisd and whatnot....thats all i do lately is be over there, i hope i dont bother her but im a looser...
soo yea...i need to make friends ever since a lot of shit happened i put like 1 person infront of eevryone else..and thats not helping me do shit..it gets me to where im in a pissed off mood all the time and i cant say nething cuz they will get all mad at how i feel...so yea i need some new friends
this weekend i was supposed to hang out with tammy but then she made other plans with other people so that doesnt seem like its going to happen.. so friday im like not doing anything...saturday im going to school and then anthonys birthday party after that..hes 3 now and hes gettin a pimp party..WTF...anyways and then sunday its back to doing nothing...i mean do you get it..i do nothing...because i wait.. and i shouldnt do that but thats just how it seems to be for me..i get fucked over. my ma trys to kick me out i get fucked over on everything and ya know what sux is i never really realized how manny people i have shut out...so i guess from now on i wont wait and ill see how far that gets me...because waiting just pisses me off..
she knows this is about her and i know im gonna hear about it and i dont want to but shit happens...but i dont know how to talk to you anymore...i dont even know what to say to you. because im so afraid of you blowing up at me...and your my best friend and like my only friend that i have..and i dont want to risk loosing that but it might not matter now...i just want you to know...id go through hell and back for you because thats how much of a best friend you are to me...and i have gone through a lot and not just for you but ive tried my damndest to help you...i dont know if you see it or not...but i do! and i dont want thanks i dont want you to jump up and down about it...but i would like to know where everythings going now!
anyways now that im gonna hear about it im gonna go becasue theres no sence in sitting here in a bad mood...PEACE!