Life, Love, and Apprehension
As I write this I'm sitting in the Cyber Cafe on a base in Iraq called Balad Air Base. I've been thinking a lot about my life and the 26 years that I've been on earth. And I find myself confused a lot about what I want to do, and where I want to be when I'm old and gray. As far as life, I think I've led a pretty upstanding and average life. I've served 8 years so far in the military, bought my own house, found the love of my life, have a nice reliable car, and have the best friends and neighbors a guy could ask for. But is that it? Is that all everyone aspires to? Do you just settle, or strive for more? I've been toying with turning my world upside down as far as work goes. I suppose that's where my Apprehension comes from. I've never went to college, or for that matter even thought about going to college. My whole life plan was to retire Military and after that, let the chips fall where they are. But now I'm seeing bigger and better opportunities out there. Yes the job market is not that great on the outside, but if I leave it in the current status what will I have left after the 20 years? I definitely won't have the great relationship I have with everyone I know. I won't have my own house anymore. It will definitely put a strain on my relationship, and my car will be old and worthless :(. Well... ok knowing me I'll have a different car by then either route, but the point is that I love my life right now. And I believe that the risk is well worth the effort I'll have to put forth, and the apprehension that will be steady the whole way through. Well I suppose that is it for now, I need to go and put my laundry in the dryer and take a shower... until next time peeps.