kill me....i have no life
It's so nice sitting very still,
in a room where no one else can feel
the pain that breaks my heart each day, I'm not ok.
Sunlight shining through my window,
let's me know that I'm still alive
Why did I ever let you inside my heart? I'm such a fool.
Paint my face in shades of blood and grey
and take the seat right next to me
But I should've known that you were a killer. But now I'm dead.
A gaping hole, shot through my heart
A lost connection from your poison dart
Shot from your tongue to end my life.
But if you're blowing at the fire to light your strife.
You'll never know. You'll never know.
The hardest thing about dying is, knowing you'll never see the light of day.
A gaping hole shot...(shot through my heart)
A lost connection from your poison dart.
My head now spins and my ears bleed gold.
I try so fucking hard, but I can't fit your mold.
The hardest thing about dying is, knowing you'll never see the light of day.
You ripped my heart out, you tore my eyes out, now you're gonna pay
I'll stab you one time.
I'll eat your heart out so you feel my pain.
Don't you know that I always see you in all of my dreams?
I wanna kill you. I wanna kill you. Now I'm insane.
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Just throw it back, for one more night
On a starlit and moon-struck night.
The ground did fold and eat us both
But all my love, I did devote.
Beneath the rafters the angels sing
Spinning violence and playing with my heart.
(This song) I wrote, for you to see.
And my heart it now breaks
And the blood spilled down your spine
Lost inside another crash
The bones I had, turned into ash.
The world did cry, the night you died
And I am no good at suicide.
Beneath the rafters the angels sing
Spinning violence and playing with my heart.
(This song) I wrote, for you to see.
And my heart it now breaks
And the blood spilled down your spine
And I lost what was mine, and I want what was mine.
My heart now it always breaks, the blood did drip and I did take,
another wish, another kiss, no more will for me to kill.
We'd run away in our dismay, but please, come back to me.
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So the lie now is my weapon
Like a bush dried withered in the sun
With this spark I'll go up in flames.
I'd lay my guts out but they're too small to see
It's kinda cute how I pretend to be
Everything but the instrument I am.
Peace or happiness
So let it enfold you
A birth to life is what I'm after
My first name won't be my last one
Let the light just drip into your eyes.
So it's true my words are contrived
I tell lies just to get into your mind
I'm as fake as a widow's smile.
This mask of glass is what I choose to wear
So I won't ever have the need to bear
The total truth to anyone but me.
Peace or happiness
So let it enfold you
A birth to life is what I'm after
My first name won't be my last one
Let the light just drip into your eyes.
I'm just a bad actor stuck with a shitty script
All of my lines are cheap and the cast is weak
There was no music for the first time I got kissed
There was no femme fatal, my mistress wasn't rich.
So I've been formatted to fit your TV screen
The film went straight to tape, I'll bow out quietly.
So quietly. So quietly.
Please do this now I beg
Duct tape my arms and legs
Throw me into the sea
(Please save me, please save me)
[x2]
Now watch the waves eat me
Setting my cold heart free
I'll wash ashore in weeks
(You can't save me, can't save me)
Now watch the waves eat me
Setting my cold heart free
I'll wash ashore in weeks
(You can't save me, you can't save me now)
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I won't forget the day that, that I came to
And I started thinking that there's more
Than just perfect prom queens and silver spoons
And all I ever wanted was someone to
knock me back to the bliss of ignorance
'Cause I feel like running head first into traffic.
And so I'm here to say
That thoughts in bed with pain.
I won't forget the day that, that I found god
In a kitchen knife now and on my arm
So paint the pale white floor with, with my red life
And tell myself this pain is the pain I love
As I swallow the pills of happiness
And you watch me fall like New York in an earthquake
And so I'm here to say
That thoughts in bed with pain.
I stand outside my pretty house
I light a match to start the fire
I call the cops to let 'em know
It's 22 Walthery Ave.
I thought I wanted this.
I thought I wanted this.
(I'm here to say)
I said I wanted some more attention
I thought I wanted a story ending.
(I love the pain, I hate the pain)
I just give in.
I think that the truth is I'm scared
I think that I'm just scared to live
I think that the truth is I'm scared
I think that the truth is I'm everything that I hate.
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Wait, before you hang up the phone
Listen to reason I'll show you I'm trying to change
I'm trying to change
And I'm so scared, what do you think of me now?
What do you think of me?
No more lies I swear
No more words I haven't been fair
Give me a chance to clear my name
Through the years I love you the same
Feed the meter, I'll stay all night
Give me some clothes I won't ever go home
If that's alright
Let's run behind the music, fall onto my couch
Where blankets tickle naked bodies, rolling around
Baby I'm sorry, for pushing you away
Baby I'm sorry, is all that I can say
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Wish I knew what I could do
To make you stay.
But I don't know what I could say.
In my mind, I can erase state lines
And in my head I could extend my bed...
To 23rd, Lexington.
And in my mind I could erase state lines.
We've been spoiled,
But not equivalent to food,
More like...
To much of a good thing,
Always goes bad.
Always goes bad....
The 24th, of a dying month
Kills the season,
but it won't kill us.
Hope these words bring tears to your eyes.
Cuz they bring tears to mine.
And in my eyes you're still the best prize.
And in my heart it would take more then this city to tear us apart,
tear us apart...
And in my mind, I could erase state lines.
We've been spoiled,
But not equivalent to food,
more like...
To much of a good thing,
Always goes bad.
Always goes bad...
Hope these words bring tears to your eyes,
'cuz these words bring tears to mine.
Me and you against the world,
Story of a boy and a girl.
You've seen me when I'm at my worst,
Sorry that's been most of the time.
But I need you more than I need this air,
Only breathe if you let me.
Need you more then I need these words...
Stop on a dime if only to here you say,
that you love me.
Stop on a dime if only to hear you say,
that you love me.
Stop on a dime if only to hear you say,
that you love me.
Stop on a dime if only to hear you say,
that you love me.
Stop on a dime if only to hear you say...
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My Eyes tear the shade of red
I won't ever see you again
I guess it's for the best
because I never want to see you with him
My Ears bleed the shade of red
I won't ever hear you again
I'll never hear you say that you love him
My Nose runs the shade of red
I'll never smell your sweet perfume
"Happy Days" have all gone by
These happy days aren't yours and mine
What do you do
When all you can do is wake up and die?
And what do I do
When every single song I hear reminds me of you?
Why do I keep doing this to myself
I'm asking these questions
I'll keep staring and screaming up into the sky
Until I find you
My Mouth bleeds the shade of red
I won't ever taste your lips
Those "cotton candy" kisses of death
Last but not Least
I won't ever touch your skin
Just one last touch but you've been contaminated
So never again
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Take this for what its worth
this song my smile
i write to you from hell my song
leaving my foot against the gas
and the wall that must have said your name
(I'll write to you from hell tonight)
waken me, for nothing you can say could
stop this now, would a noose replace his lips?
can a song replace a broken heart?
can a song replace a broken love?
on the beach i remind myself
that holding hands is so powerless
tonight i dont even have the stars to hold onto
Paint this red
her picture will remain unbroken she crys tonight
i fall in love
wipe each tear away with sand paper tonight im not alone
i just wanna get your fucking voice out of my head
will i fall within the break? ill watch you fall.
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My fingers ache from clenching this fist
My eyes still burn
I'm pouring my heart through these telephone wires
I'm getting the notion that you've become tired
You've become tired