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i was sitting at work, no customers, no air conditioning, no will to be anywhere but bed; when i made the decision to leave. i finished my shift, but quit the job and two days later moved to ann arbor. it may have been a rash decision, or maybe i hadn't fully recuperated from the last nervous breakdown but it seemed like a wise choice.
i felt trapped in east lansing, i stayed out there for a girl and was going to continue to do so even after she broke up with me. she said she wanted me to get my own life and be happy. i realized that sitting in east lansing all i was doing was waiting.
the night i moved i was upset, within the past two weeks my life has been flipped upside down and i was just recovering from the shock. i don't handle change very well, in small doses fine, but all that has happened i felt like i was going to explode. i couldn't eat or sleep without pills, and then all the sudden in the middle of the next day i felt better. so many people, friends, and aquantences offered to help.
last night was the most fun i'd had in a long time. i met new people and got to hang out with marchelle for probably the 5th time ever hah.
so i went from shit job at minimum wage, working all the time and bringing home little to no money, to getting a good job with full benifits and almost double my previous pay. i went from no home, to a million opportunities to move in with people. (mac baby love)
finally i will have my own money to do with what i want, first i owe a few people some cash, getting my car working, then getting stuff i want while saving to move on my own again. i start my new job monday and i work 6:30am to 4:30pm 7 days a week. with overtime.
do i still feel sad, yes. i think about the way things were and i get bummed. but then i think about the way things are turning out and i feel hope and happiness.
special thanks to marchelle, tiffany, robert, mac, marc, berto, madison, homicide, geoge, marg, and many others.
i have a cold and i'm off to lunch with tiffany and karl. oh, and i'll be in fenton this weekend.
i felt trapped in east lansing, i stayed out there for a girl and was going to continue to do so even after she broke up with me. she said she wanted me to get my own life and be happy. i realized that sitting in east lansing all i was doing was waiting.
the night i moved i was upset, within the past two weeks my life has been flipped upside down and i was just recovering from the shock. i don't handle change very well, in small doses fine, but all that has happened i felt like i was going to explode. i couldn't eat or sleep without pills, and then all the sudden in the middle of the next day i felt better. so many people, friends, and aquantences offered to help.
last night was the most fun i'd had in a long time. i met new people and got to hang out with marchelle for probably the 5th time ever hah.
so i went from shit job at minimum wage, working all the time and bringing home little to no money, to getting a good job with full benifits and almost double my previous pay. i went from no home, to a million opportunities to move in with people. (mac baby love)
finally i will have my own money to do with what i want, first i owe a few people some cash, getting my car working, then getting stuff i want while saving to move on my own again. i start my new job monday and i work 6:30am to 4:30pm 7 days a week. with overtime.
do i still feel sad, yes. i think about the way things were and i get bummed. but then i think about the way things are turning out and i feel hope and happiness.
special thanks to marchelle, tiffany, robert, mac, marc, berto, madison, homicide, geoge, marg, and many others.
i have a cold and i'm off to lunch with tiffany and karl. oh, and i'll be in fenton this weekend.