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I used to get sick of feeling like nothing would ever change for me. but only so much can go wrong before it starts to feel natural. it starts to feel out of your hands. and then i start feeling like maybe i dont deserve this. maybe i deserve to be as happy as anybody, whatever that means. but the only person who can make me feel truly okay, wont. and i can't figure out why, thats all i ever wanted to do for her, all i ever tried to do. i never thought it was going to last forever or anything naive like that, but i was getting used to being happy, and i wasn't ready to let it go. im sorry that im writing this here, but i told you, me and tears are okay now. and me and my feelings are okay now. but time and me never had this problem before i met her.