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My ex; I've decided that I don't love you still. I just loved the idea of you, the feeling of the memories we had, and I wish I had them... but not with you.
My husband; You are not a husband. You promised you would take care of me the moment we met, because I felt so broken. You haven't kept that promise, or ANY promise at all. I had faith in you and gave you endless chances ever since we met, and I decided that I am finally done. I feel as if I am abusing myself by leaning on someone who is all talk and no action, in any aspect of your life. I loved you, I wanted our relationship to work. I loved you enough to marry you and have your child. I built my life upon love, and now I finally learned that I have to be independent. I can't change you since that is a choice you have to make yourself, and you haven't wanted to for me enough. You said I am the best thing that happened in your life... I know that I am, and you don't act like I am. I do not regret my son. He is my life. I can't believe in anything you say anymore. I can't stay with someone who is poisoning my emotions and brain and soul. You use me, and disrespect me. I can't stand it anymore. Making love is awkward, and I feel like we do it once a month just to do it. I can't say I'm in love with you anymore. I don't know what to do...
All I know is, I live for me and my son. I will build my own life with him if I have to. Love comes last now. I'm done with love. It's tiring and I've used 100% of my effort to put into love, and now love is pointless.
I want to see what you will do to make it work. I want you to prove to me that your promises will not be half-assed, and only kept for a week until you transition back to your annoying ways. I don't believe it'll happen.
You made me believe that I can't believe in anyone ever again.