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so im working on crying myself to sleep tonite, yay for me. im so in love with her, and she doesnt feel the same. i kno she loves me but i dont think shes in love with me. who knos, im so fuckin tired but i just cant sleep. i guess i should go back to tryin to sleep since i have work tomorrow. i told her i need time to heal before i can be friends with her. but i dunno if i can and if it is possible it will take forever. shes the one, shes the fucking one im supposed to spend the rest of my life with. i dont care if thats too much pressure for her its how i feel. i just always end up feeling too much or too little. i dont mean to guilt trip her, sometimes i do, sometimes i dont sometimes i hold back so much from her just so she wont kno how i feel. i would do anything for her but i couldnt give her what she needed most, space. well she is gettin it now. and i think im done for now.