sometimes i feel as though i'm being ridiculous for stressing myself out so much.

[bleedmethrillme]

all my life, i've been told that the shit i do now will affect me later in life. in elementary school i was asked by a man passing out "career tests" where i wanted to go to college. i glanced at Drew Iwanicki's paper, which read "Ivy League" and decided that's where i wanted to go. Even though i had no idea what that was--because that's what

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[xfallfarewellx]

The same thoughts have been plaguing my mind lately. Its a bold step for me to follow what I've been thinking lately as a response to these questions, but honestly, who gives a fuck? Where does there exist a timetable that dictates exactly how long it should take to finish college and to achieve the final goal? Parents confuse a scheduled map of college with one that is needed for the student with no goals or aspiration. For those people a sort of plan is needed to help encourage them to achieve something. You and I, on the other hand, are different. We have majors, know what we want to do in general and have goal oriented plans. Nobody ever knows what they want to do exactly in life, and for those who decide at an early age to be a doctor, lawyer, etc., I feel they're being naive. Once people are in college there are so many new things that they're introduced to and usually opinions and minds can change. That what college is for, and honestly for all those people who go away for school...what was the purpose of going out of state or hometown? To experience something new.

The problem we face today is the conflict of idealism and reality. You and I are now at a point in college where everything we're doing and about to do is reality. Idealism is fading, although this is not to say that goals are gone and its futile to keep on aspiring. Instead we're only a year or two away from living the beginning of our adult lives.

I hope as a parent I won't fall into the parroted advice our parents gave us. I'll give them goal oriented advice, but in the end its up to the individual to pave their own path. Outside pressures do nothing for us except add more stress to what we have to deal with scholastically. Our parents doubting and questioning our majors and motives does nothing except discourage us from continuing what we want to do. I feel this way, although I'm not sure if its exactly the same for you. Our parents want the best for us and want us to live better lives than they have. The problem is they don't know how it works, or they think a cookie cutter idea fits all models. The fact is not every person can fulfill that model; we're all different, we take different paths but in the end as long as we keep the spirit of achievement we'll all succeed. That's another point too...the definition of success is relative; what's post-college career success isn't the same as the person next to you or me. That's the problem right there.

If this doesn't seem to make sense, then I say blame the Asians and they're fucking go to "correge" and get doctorate and make "rots" of money.

[xfallfarewellx]

I do a good job of proof reading too. Corrections, if I may:

their*

and I should be more clear as to say:

what's "post-college career" success. . .
(when I read it the words blended too much together)