I just realized something in the shower
Ever since Stacey, I haven't had a close, close friend. I had one in Vikki... if I didn't call her, she would call me and we'd just chat. We'd be worried if we didn't see one another on AIM and we knew the other's schedule. Then I went and fucked things up. Then Stacey came along... we talked almost every day. Not as often as Vikki... but we tried so, so often.
Then that whole thing with Stacey, Vyc, and me happened.
I talk with Zoe every once and a while, and I IM Kris occasionally... but I feel like I'm holding myself back from it all. Shit, ever since CoE, and seeing the crap they actually said behind my back whenever I'd actually say what was wrong, I barely speak with people.
... it's late, and it's probably the hour talking, but I so feel out of place.
Then that whole thing with Stacey, Vyc, and me happened.
I talk with Zoe every once and a while, and I IM Kris occasionally... but I feel like I'm holding myself back from it all. Shit, ever since CoE, and seeing the crap they actually said behind my back whenever I'd actually say what was wrong, I barely speak with people.
... it's late, and it's probably the hour talking, but I so feel out of place.