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Have I found my true calling in life?
It has been almost second nature to doubt things in my life. I don't think I would have admitted this a few years ago, but I definitely CANNOT make up my mind on things. I am extremely fickle.
I really think I found something amazing though.
I have never felt more out of place yet completely at home.
I see how people live their lives here and I WANT IT.
Everything I feel I have been lacking in my life is RIGHT HERE.
The community.
The spirituality.
The passion.
So many of my questions have been answered here. Have I found a home?
I can't imagine not coming back here at some point. And by "here" I mean the middle east. Not necessarily Jordan. Jordan is the nice "Welcome to the Middle East" center. Its a good way to get you accumulated to Middle Eastern customs without the full on shock of what you can experience. Its like watered down...Arabness? Maybe thats not a fair description but thats kind of how I feel it is. It has opened me up to so many other parts of this beautiful part of the world.
I recently found my heart in Bethlehem. Funny how a dirty, small, rather boring place could provide me with so much happiness. The people I met there were absolutely amazing. The issues that threaten to tear them apart every day loom over them yet somehow they survive. They push through. And they do it with each other as one tight knit community.
I have a dream now to go back to Bethlehem and build a cinema. The entire West Bank lacks entertainment of any kind. There is only one functioning Cinema in the West Bank, and from what I heard, its not even worth going to.
Its amazing how simple something as a movie theater could potentially bring so much joy into the lives of the Palestinians. Its something I wish I could do for them.
Who knows if this dream will ever be realized for ME. But I hope that someone out there takes an interest in it and does something.
Some would say, why build? It will just get blown up. Chances are, thats true. But I want to be like the Palestinian people. I want to perservere. I want to take the blows and keep on living. It is not an excuse to say that because life is hard we shouldn't try to live our lives.
I'm in love with a region that is fraught with so much death and destruction; hate and pain; religion and politics. Yet there is so much beauty present there.
Ana beheb al wasat sharq.
It has been almost second nature to doubt things in my life. I don't think I would have admitted this a few years ago, but I definitely CANNOT make up my mind on things. I am extremely fickle.
I really think I found something amazing though.
I have never felt more out of place yet completely at home.
I see how people live their lives here and I WANT IT.
Everything I feel I have been lacking in my life is RIGHT HERE.
The community.
The spirituality.
The passion.
So many of my questions have been answered here. Have I found a home?
I can't imagine not coming back here at some point. And by "here" I mean the middle east. Not necessarily Jordan. Jordan is the nice "Welcome to the Middle East" center. Its a good way to get you accumulated to Middle Eastern customs without the full on shock of what you can experience. Its like watered down...Arabness? Maybe thats not a fair description but thats kind of how I feel it is. It has opened me up to so many other parts of this beautiful part of the world.
I recently found my heart in Bethlehem. Funny how a dirty, small, rather boring place could provide me with so much happiness. The people I met there were absolutely amazing. The issues that threaten to tear them apart every day loom over them yet somehow they survive. They push through. And they do it with each other as one tight knit community.
I have a dream now to go back to Bethlehem and build a cinema. The entire West Bank lacks entertainment of any kind. There is only one functioning Cinema in the West Bank, and from what I heard, its not even worth going to.
Its amazing how simple something as a movie theater could potentially bring so much joy into the lives of the Palestinians. Its something I wish I could do for them.
Who knows if this dream will ever be realized for ME. But I hope that someone out there takes an interest in it and does something.
Some would say, why build? It will just get blown up. Chances are, thats true. But I want to be like the Palestinian people. I want to perservere. I want to take the blows and keep on living. It is not an excuse to say that because life is hard we shouldn't try to live our lives.
I'm in love with a region that is fraught with so much death and destruction; hate and pain; religion and politics. Yet there is so much beauty present there.
Ana beheb al wasat sharq.