I want to be more than okay.
okay, so I thought my life was going fine. But now this is the story.
-Billi and Matt are going out
-I'm now known as a wannabe cutter because one of my cuts looks like scratches.
-I have no friends, what so ever. They are all fake.
-I took like 20 sleeping pills, and 6 shots of tequlia and vodka and nothing is happening
-I feel as if I don't exist.
-I can't cry anymore...the tears just won't come
-I cut myself over 100 times in the past year.
-I feel as if i'm dying. (we can only hope)
-My dad might get surgey(that costs lots of money...therefore we will be broke)
-I had a headache since the week before school and it hasn't gone away yet.
-My grandma is dying..
-My grandpa is smoking more cuz of the death of his dog.
Those are the bad things...now here is the good thing.
-My parents are buying me stuff. (cd's and a cd player)
-I am eatting again
-I can fake a smile and get away with it.
-I can lie to my parents to why there is no tequlia
-I get to see my therapist on the 20th. (yay!)
-I can get away with wearing long sleeves and my parent's don't question me.
-I'm getting more razors soon.
-Allen is home for good, no more Navy. (yay!!!!!!)
-Benny and I are back to where we use to be. And he totally dissed Billi and it was soo fucking funny....and sooo true.