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I'm single again. I need time for myself, I feel like I'm too young to think about forever right now. I don't even know what I want. If I keep Marco with me like that, then it's unfair to him. Maybe he doesn't even know what he wants. What if now that we're not together he actually realizes he doesn't want me. I feel bad, but I think I'm doing us both a favor. Giving us time away to think and not have anything sway our decision or have anyone at our backs telling us what they think we SHOULD do. Now it'll just be my decision and thats it. Thats the way I want it. I'm o.k. not dieing. I'm learning how to deal with these types of things. They hurt like fucking hell, but lifes not a faerietale. We gotta live and learn.......live and learn.......