Alot of stuff...
Sooo...some stuff
sometimes....i feel like ripping myself to shreds.
Crapp happening with centrelink, haven't had much of a chance to Andre lately, living with my grandparents is awesome...now my dog Missy is here, and hopefully will be here to say...i rather her not be put down with a bullet.
I have lost more respect for my mother...i hate two guys with a pure passion and have dreamt about beating them to a bloody pulp and even killing them. I dare not mention who, those who know me know who i am talking about...though i wouldnt do anything to destroy my future with Andre. Hope he does make it here sometime near April...his birthday is only 3months away.
So yeah...as i said, sometimes i feel like ripping myself apart. I go to claw at myself...its odd.
I dont think i will see my psych anymore, last appointment i had she said that there's alot of positive things happening in my life...yes, that may be so....but there is also a fuckload of bad shit happening and alot of mixed emotions that are fucking me over.
People suck
Men suck
LIFE SUCKS!
Tis scary when i think about death these days...something i hadn't thought about for a long time really. Sometimes i wonder if i should just give up. But in the end i know i will still be here.
On another note, something awesome, i got to meet my friend Nicole who lives in West Sussex, England...she's awesome. Also met her friend Simon...wicked awesome peoples those two. Stayed for 4 nights here, hope they enjoyed the time here with crazy me.
So, i think i have typed enough for now...will most likely make another entry in a few months or something.
sometimes....i feel like ripping myself to shreds.
Crapp happening with centrelink, haven't had much of a chance to Andre lately, living with my grandparents is awesome...now my dog Missy is here, and hopefully will be here to say...i rather her not be put down with a bullet.
I have lost more respect for my mother...i hate two guys with a pure passion and have dreamt about beating them to a bloody pulp and even killing them. I dare not mention who, those who know me know who i am talking about...though i wouldnt do anything to destroy my future with Andre. Hope he does make it here sometime near April...his birthday is only 3months away.
So yeah...as i said, sometimes i feel like ripping myself apart. I go to claw at myself...its odd.
I dont think i will see my psych anymore, last appointment i had she said that there's alot of positive things happening in my life...yes, that may be so....but there is also a fuckload of bad shit happening and alot of mixed emotions that are fucking me over.
People suck
Men suck
LIFE SUCKS!
Tis scary when i think about death these days...something i hadn't thought about for a long time really. Sometimes i wonder if i should just give up. But in the end i know i will still be here.
On another note, something awesome, i got to meet my friend Nicole who lives in West Sussex, England...she's awesome. Also met her friend Simon...wicked awesome peoples those two. Stayed for 4 nights here, hope they enjoyed the time here with crazy me.
So, i think i have typed enough for now...will most likely make another entry in a few months or something.