A Tiring life...
I just don't understand how so many of my friends could be so commited right now...It's terribly depressing to be hearing about all of these weddings and pregnancys. It makes me wonder if I'm going to be one of those women who never finds that certain someone, who wastes her whole life turning people away. I know when I am dating someone that I pick them apart until I find a flaw that I can't deal with but half the time it was a flaw that I had overlooked in my desperation to be with someone so in the end it's better off. I can honestly say I'm sick and tired of these left overs being thrown at me... first nick and now eric neither of which really has a chance or had one to begin with but omg am I tired of people thinking that something is going on when nothing is. I just want to meet a normal well mannered guy who has a job and doesn't live with mom and dad. I suppose that's alot to ask but I mean jeez if I; miss co-dependent can move out of the rents than I don't see how these guys cant, and forget about meeting them online aparently the only time girls meet guys online is to hook up and I am not cool with that. I'm not about to add slut to my lovely bunch of flaws. I guess guys assume that because I'm not that pretty and quite obviously overweight that I will just bend to their will and get in their beds but that's bullshit! I mean sure I'm not about to turn away some harmless flirting but I guarantee any guy that thinks I'm an easy lay will be sorely mistaken...
I can honestly say that I don't regret any past boyfriend that I've broken up with and I haven't had the urge to call any of them (besides jarrett who is still a friend) but that's an accomplishment for me to not want to constantly explore old options. DAMN! I need new options I know it's my fault for not going out at all but still I'm just not the bar kinda chick and it seems like at this age you either meet guys in bars or online and neither said guy has just a stimulating conversation in mind nor are they planning on being monogomous because as most girls know men are opportunists they stick with one thing till something better comes along and expresses interest not to say that alot of girls don't do that because they do but I mean I've seen it and experienced it first hand I have a guys full attention till a pretty girl walks in and shows interest then I'm dropped like a sack of ugly potatoes but what's worse is that most guys think there is nothing wrong with keeping the sad sack as a back up plan if this new girl doesn't fall for his "charm". Also if any guy is reading this we can always and I repeat always see through this charm we know what you are trying to do the stupid compliments that are completely vapid and the trying to be sincere bullshit on what a great guy you are...you can't be that great if you have to tell me....but anyways sorry for the rant but I had alot of stuff built up.... not that anyone but me is going to read this...
I can honestly say that I don't regret any past boyfriend that I've broken up with and I haven't had the urge to call any of them (besides jarrett who is still a friend) but that's an accomplishment for me to not want to constantly explore old options. DAMN! I need new options I know it's my fault for not going out at all but still I'm just not the bar kinda chick and it seems like at this age you either meet guys in bars or online and neither said guy has just a stimulating conversation in mind nor are they planning on being monogomous because as most girls know men are opportunists they stick with one thing till something better comes along and expresses interest not to say that alot of girls don't do that because they do but I mean I've seen it and experienced it first hand I have a guys full attention till a pretty girl walks in and shows interest then I'm dropped like a sack of ugly potatoes but what's worse is that most guys think there is nothing wrong with keeping the sad sack as a back up plan if this new girl doesn't fall for his "charm". Also if any guy is reading this we can always and I repeat always see through this charm we know what you are trying to do the stupid compliments that are completely vapid and the trying to be sincere bullshit on what a great guy you are...you can't be that great if you have to tell me....but anyways sorry for the rant but I had alot of stuff built up.... not that anyone but me is going to read this...