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I am doing something that I do NOT want to do but, I feel that to some how save my relationship with Mike and smooth things out with his parents I must become what I don't like or want. A yuppie. I depise yuppies. Sure money is needed in the world but, some of these people can see past the end of a dollar bill. That is all that matters to them.
I will have to dress in nice clothes. I don't have the money to afford a new wardrobe. Just about everytime I go over there I will feel like I am at a job interveiw. I'm already nervous when I go over there and now this will make it worse.
I wanted to give up on us two weeks ago because it was getting to be too much for me. I tired again tonight. He will hear nothing of it. He wants us to stay together. I don't know what to do. I don't know about breaking up with him but, I would really like a break. I'm going to go out of my mind soon. I don't want to loose control of my temper. I've seen myself turn that way and I really don't like it all that much.
Sometimes I just want to go back to Eric. Things were easier then. I didn't have to prove to them what kind of person that I am. *sighs*
I just want to crawl under my blankets and sleep for a very very long time.
I will have to dress in nice clothes. I don't have the money to afford a new wardrobe. Just about everytime I go over there I will feel like I am at a job interveiw. I'm already nervous when I go over there and now this will make it worse.
I wanted to give up on us two weeks ago because it was getting to be too much for me. I tired again tonight. He will hear nothing of it. He wants us to stay together. I don't know what to do. I don't know about breaking up with him but, I would really like a break. I'm going to go out of my mind soon. I don't want to loose control of my temper. I've seen myself turn that way and I really don't like it all that much.
Sometimes I just want to go back to Eric. Things were easier then. I didn't have to prove to them what kind of person that I am. *sighs*
I just want to crawl under my blankets and sleep for a very very long time.