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Man I feel like crap. I have the most awful tension headache. My stomach is all bleh. I want to crawl under my couch and die. That's all I want to do.
No one in my family understands how much stress I'm under. I have to work in the stupid business, plus struggle through year 12, plus deal with emotional strain, plus have some sort of social life. They come home and bitch me out, I go to my room and just want to relax and switch off and watch TV, and they all float about me, accusing me of being a slackarse and never doing anything. Thrashing heavy metal music isn't helping my head.
Man I'm in a crabby mood. Just as well I'm not going out tonight, the company I'd be with would have to put up with it. Headaches always make me disorientated, sleepy and grumpy.
It'd be awesome if I could just cease to exist without the pain, and without anyone caring if I go. I'd so just end this futility. Oh my head. Oh my mind.
I should stop posting entry of angst after angst.. but hey, I just don't care anymore. I just can't care anymore.
And tomorrow I will be working 6 hours straight in a job I don't want to be in but am forced to be in to be able to afford to support my social life, faced with people I don't want to see, pies that smell like crap, and a uniform that is just as conformative as my school one. Ha.
It could be worse. I could be living in Iraq.
At least I'd probably be dead, though.
No one in my family understands how much stress I'm under. I have to work in the stupid business, plus struggle through year 12, plus deal with emotional strain, plus have some sort of social life. They come home and bitch me out, I go to my room and just want to relax and switch off and watch TV, and they all float about me, accusing me of being a slackarse and never doing anything. Thrashing heavy metal music isn't helping my head.
Man I'm in a crabby mood. Just as well I'm not going out tonight, the company I'd be with would have to put up with it. Headaches always make me disorientated, sleepy and grumpy.
It'd be awesome if I could just cease to exist without the pain, and without anyone caring if I go. I'd so just end this futility. Oh my head. Oh my mind.
I should stop posting entry of angst after angst.. but hey, I just don't care anymore. I just can't care anymore.
And tomorrow I will be working 6 hours straight in a job I don't want to be in but am forced to be in to be able to afford to support my social life, faced with people I don't want to see, pies that smell like crap, and a uniform that is just as conformative as my school one. Ha.
It could be worse. I could be living in Iraq.
At least I'd probably be dead, though.