I'm Sorry...
Dear Friends,
I know that I've made you pissed or annoyed at me, and I'm sorry. I do things subconciously and realize a day or two after that you're angry at me, unless you've told me. I'm like..oblivious to these things. So then I try to talk to you and I just make you even more mad cuz I haven't given you space. I'm sorry.
I really don't know how to talk to people face to face, so this is why I'm writing about it. Call me a pussy or childish, but honestly...I just can't. I really try to and I say to myself that I'm gonna call this person, or talk to them face to face, but I just can't bring myself up to do it. I mean, I call them, and they don't answer, and then I get discouraged. I really do try. And I feel like if I wrote them a myspace or facebook comment or message would get them mad at me even more and be like "She's so childish because she can't talk to me to my face." Or they'd feel like I disrespected them or they lose even more respect in me.
I know that with some of this shit, I've lost our closeness...and it kinda hurts. But I guess it's my fault.
I guess you can say that I miss the good old times. I really do. I miss just bullshitting around with some of you and just hanging around. I'm probably asking too much.
Well, that's all I have to really say. I hope everyone has a great day. :)
Love,
Belinda
I know that I've made you pissed or annoyed at me, and I'm sorry. I do things subconciously and realize a day or two after that you're angry at me, unless you've told me. I'm like..oblivious to these things. So then I try to talk to you and I just make you even more mad cuz I haven't given you space. I'm sorry.
I really don't know how to talk to people face to face, so this is why I'm writing about it. Call me a pussy or childish, but honestly...I just can't. I really try to and I say to myself that I'm gonna call this person, or talk to them face to face, but I just can't bring myself up to do it. I mean, I call them, and they don't answer, and then I get discouraged. I really do try. And I feel like if I wrote them a myspace or facebook comment or message would get them mad at me even more and be like "She's so childish because she can't talk to me to my face." Or they'd feel like I disrespected them or they lose even more respect in me.
I know that with some of this shit, I've lost our closeness...and it kinda hurts. But I guess it's my fault.
I guess you can say that I miss the good old times. I really do. I miss just bullshitting around with some of you and just hanging around. I'm probably asking too much.
Well, that's all I have to really say. I hope everyone has a great day. :)
Love,
Belinda