If There's A Point to This Anymore, It's Not Worth It...

[bleedashesdied]

sad thing is i'm still that fool
for some reason i wont learn
my heart speaks over brain and reason
though i have no point to
nothing will happen
i keep hope as a false ideal
it keeps me cause how it makes me feel
i need a new hope
or at least a stable and certain
don't care if it's the old hope i've been trying to attain
or a new one to help me get over my old hopes
it's like nothing's ever certain in my life
old loves and loses are reoccurring dreams and nightmares
i want something constant
someone to tell me i'm worth something for once
that i'm worth the time and effort to them
someone who can actually see me for half of what i saw her
and that's a lot
i would have/can love and not forget
but they always seems to
this is my life and u'd think i'd grow accustomed to it
but instead i grow more sad and sick
manic and depressed cause i feel like i'm not worth it anymore
it's no ones fault but mine
i can't blame anyone for my failures but myself
this is my curse
the cloud above me grows with the evaporation of condensation from my eyes
so emotional.
i wish i could slow down but i just fall
there's no point in trying anymore
i can't do it anymore
i just cant
save me
please