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SOOOOOO i've been home in PA since wednesday, its a bit overwhelming. I'd say its stressful... but in a good way. Stressful in the sense that i'm taking care of family.. but i'm happy to. I never thought about 5 or 6 years ago that things would be this way. I'm closer to my family all around, it's rather amazing. I wish i could help everyone to realize it earlier, but I guess i needed to go through the bitter stage to get to this point.
I've been so distraught lately about a few things. I mean, life is totally coming together. Optimism is just not an option unfortunately. I've grown so much in the past few months... speaking up and being more straightforward. I expect a lot out of people because i HAVE to expect a lot out of them. Its too easy for everyone that enters my life to get a whole lort from me/ out of me.
I kind of want to say i had a child hood dream come true... and just as quickly come to an end at the blink of the eye. I dont really have the time to be upset... because thats just how things are. Some dreams come true... some get broken. I just kind of feel like i'm on a disconnect... especially with people i thought would have gotten where i was coming from.
I need to hold on to the convictions in my life. I think thats what really saves people, i'm starting to really realize that thats key to my life. And not just for me, but i think thats just the only way to go about it for everyone.
Well. Nature and things really has got me thinking. So i wanted to write about it some. Not to blast. I didnt wanna feel like i couldnt write in here because YOU could see it. I need to put it out there. I am pretty torn up. But really theres nothing i can do but walk away.
I've been so distraught lately about a few things. I mean, life is totally coming together. Optimism is just not an option unfortunately. I've grown so much in the past few months... speaking up and being more straightforward. I expect a lot out of people because i HAVE to expect a lot out of them. Its too easy for everyone that enters my life to get a whole lort from me/ out of me.
I kind of want to say i had a child hood dream come true... and just as quickly come to an end at the blink of the eye. I dont really have the time to be upset... because thats just how things are. Some dreams come true... some get broken. I just kind of feel like i'm on a disconnect... especially with people i thought would have gotten where i was coming from.
I need to hold on to the convictions in my life. I think thats what really saves people, i'm starting to really realize that thats key to my life. And not just for me, but i think thats just the only way to go about it for everyone.
Well. Nature and things really has got me thinking. So i wanted to write about it some. Not to blast. I didnt wanna feel like i couldnt write in here because YOU could see it. I need to put it out there. I am pretty torn up. But really theres nothing i can do but walk away.