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Dear Summer,
you blessed me ever so wonderfully with an angel at its beginning. however, i know your games. one might think you get rid of something good for something even better. the fuck if i know. i finally had what i wanted and i finally committed the action i had always yearned to. maybe it was that action that FUCKED me in the end. it was painful, it was slow, it was crawling into everything and all of me. i even cried. but that was nothing new. that was the warm up to something better.
dear summer,
remember when that thing in me quickly became sharp? you loved to twist it and turn it and fuck me till i couldn't even breath and yet STILL continued. you had to build a barrier between the one thing i cared for then. the one thing i lived for. you would, wouldn't you. what were you jealous of??? sure, the colder months were made for it before, but it was your chance to SHINE. instead you're fucking jealousy burnt my ass. well fuck you then! i'll try again.
dear summer,
so you think you put an end to me. i'm sorry you can't look as good as me summer, i guess that must be the case huh? and to think, you sent me a boy straight from the sunniest state in the U.S.... how FREAKING THOUGHTFUL OF YOU! i liked sharing that 5 at the beginning of those long string of numbers with this kid. better yet i hoped you watched when he fucking ripped my clothes apart did what was needed to be done and then held me. oh but you couldn't let him hold me could you. you and your stupid fucking summer romances. well you know what, that kid could have been good to me you piece of shit.
dear summer,
you're coming to an end. i KNOW you enjoyed giving me 2 weeks without school total. thanks for that. thanks for letting me break down in front of my mom. thanks for me saying i couldn't be alone. thanks for my mom catching me drink her alcohol. most of all, thanks for being THE CAUSE OF IT ALL.
most sincerely,
this boy.
you blessed me ever so wonderfully with an angel at its beginning. however, i know your games. one might think you get rid of something good for something even better. the fuck if i know. i finally had what i wanted and i finally committed the action i had always yearned to. maybe it was that action that FUCKED me in the end. it was painful, it was slow, it was crawling into everything and all of me. i even cried. but that was nothing new. that was the warm up to something better.
dear summer,
remember when that thing in me quickly became sharp? you loved to twist it and turn it and fuck me till i couldn't even breath and yet STILL continued. you had to build a barrier between the one thing i cared for then. the one thing i lived for. you would, wouldn't you. what were you jealous of??? sure, the colder months were made for it before, but it was your chance to SHINE. instead you're fucking jealousy burnt my ass. well fuck you then! i'll try again.
dear summer,
so you think you put an end to me. i'm sorry you can't look as good as me summer, i guess that must be the case huh? and to think, you sent me a boy straight from the sunniest state in the U.S.... how FREAKING THOUGHTFUL OF YOU! i liked sharing that 5 at the beginning of those long string of numbers with this kid. better yet i hoped you watched when he fucking ripped my clothes apart did what was needed to be done and then held me. oh but you couldn't let him hold me could you. you and your stupid fucking summer romances. well you know what, that kid could have been good to me you piece of shit.
dear summer,
you're coming to an end. i KNOW you enjoyed giving me 2 weeks without school total. thanks for that. thanks for letting me break down in front of my mom. thanks for me saying i couldn't be alone. thanks for my mom catching me drink her alcohol. most of all, thanks for being THE CAUSE OF IT ALL.
most sincerely,
this boy.