Oh so much is going on...
Life-insanity. I mean if you really had to label it, that's about all I could come up with. Ever since I've been home from school I have been running around like a mad man. I must drive 300 miles a week; that's just around Westfield! I am single now, and completely unsure of how I feel. I mean I think it was the right thing because I wasn't happy, and I wasn't whole-heartedly in it. There is definatly a chance of going back to it, but I needed freedom. I felt trapped, and I don't like how that feels. Not that anyone was exremely overbearing, but I just couldn't help but feel that I should be doing so much more with my life. I need to constantly be on the go, and having the environment change. Not too many things are constant in my life. Friendships, some of them, have been. I've seen some of my greatest friends every day and that has been truly amazing. That is really what keeps me going. If I concentrate on bettering my life through them, it seems to take the other pains away. School is tough. I mean I feel like its easier than highschool, but its a lot of work. Much more pressure. You want to be the best you can be, and sometimes that is NOT EASY. I wish that I could become famous, I think I would suit that lifestyle. Always having to be on the go, so much constant change. Some aspects of it would be shitty, the papparazi for example. I still like to maintain some privacy even if I mostly think my life is open. I don't keep too much to myself, especially emotions. I just can't imagine not expressing myself. To keep it inside is to kill yourself slowly. I have sooooo much I could write right now, but I think I should get to bed. Even though I stay up late, I like to start my day decently early so as not to waste it. Life is definatly getting faster each day, and there is no way to slow it down; only more and more ways to enjoy it as your mind opens wider....