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I have started to not care. Not carring about myself, not carring about my grades, not carring about love. I don't know what it is with me latley, I was so into getting good grades but it al just flopped. My sobriety might take a hit and become none existant. There is just so much shit going on. My parents are being fucking rotting cum rags, my personal relationship with Sarah just went to the shit hole. I told her we need a break, I dunno I don't feel comfortible around her, I feel like she loves everyone else more then me. Like I know she is meeting new friends and all, but I don't have to like them. So I don't. Oh lets friends with the chick that I just met since she is flirting with me. I don't like people, I can stand some of you, but alot of you I have this deep seeded dislike for. The thing about it is that I am a nice guy at heart so I can't be mean and tell you to fuck off. Maybe this taking a break thing isn't a good idea. I think it is just going to dig a deeper hole in my brain till it hits the core and I slowly die on the inside. I can't let this happen to me. The thing is, I won't let anyone help me. Me and my high power are just going to sit around and pow wow. Talk the shit to each other until we have an understanding. Fuck I can't thing of anything else to say.....I am going to sleep