The End of the Year
So lets see.. its the end of year now so i might as well do what is happening in a lot of journals and outline some major moments/thoughts of what happened this year. Its something I always think about but never really bothered to put in words for others to read. Mainly because what is in my head doesnt always make complete sense when i start explaining it to people. But lets give it a go ay.
a) Friends
This year has been a big thing in regards to what has happened with friends. I have sadly neglected seeing a lot of my school buddies, except for a few because they have hung around with me and Jay. This is due to a lot of things, mainly because of work and just other plans being made. Its hard to balance and one new years resolution is to do a better job of it. I have lost a friend or 2, mainly due to me losing all respect of them due to whatever shit they have done. Its made me really look hard at a lot of friendships and figure out what is happening there, and maybe better myself as a friend. I feel like i have gotten a lot closer to some friends as well, a couple in particular I feel I completely understand now, well probably understand as much as they would ever allow someone. Other friendships are just the same
as always.. strong and ever resiliant.
b) My Baby
Things are going awesome with Jay. It was our first yearly anniversary and things are going awesome still. There are hard times like now, when she is stressed about her job situation, but I help where I can and things are doing ok. I hope this lasts longer than i could possibly imagine because it does feel very right.
c) Work
Work has been stressful and wonderful during the year. There are moments where all i want to do is go home because i am so tired while doing some form of dock work, but i am really enjoying it. There are great people to work with and they definately create a big plus over some of the more unwelcome people and some of the things i have to do. I might stick around there a bit longer and see where it goes from there.
d) Uni
Uni was a big thing this year. For the first time not only did i have to balance a job, but also a girlfriend. I did alrgiht but i did stress out a lot, and make a few bad decisions in regards to when i should hand in a assignment. But i think i will do much better this semester, because in theory its my last one! Yay!
e) My Body
I hate to admit it but i have stacked on a bit of wieght. This time last year i was at my physical fittest. I had never felt better. Well in the space of a year i have become so unfit its horrible. Also grown a bit pudgy. Which sucks ass. But im gonna fix that. I am cutting back on sugar, fatty food and doing a bit/lot more exercise where i can. So thats good! Jay is doing a bit of that sort of thing with me, and will definately doing more with me, so hopefully i can get back to how i used to be. Well hopefully!
f) Drugs
It wasnt really an issue but this year my friends got into a few different things. One was short lived, and actually had a negative effect, but luckily that one got cancelled. Another one is still a big favourite and has actually suckered in a few people that werent expected. I suppose it didnt really help how much my mates talked it up. Its not anything that special though. If you have to rely on that sort of thing for even a slice of happiness, you are relying on the wrong things. One of the main users of this even realised this. He now just wont take it, and if he does it will only be on special occasions. He told me this the other day and i was actually shocked and proud of him. But still a lot of friends take the drug constantly, or any oppurtunity. You really need to look at yourself when you get excited about taking the drug on the weekend, and nothing else makes you happy. That is when you need help. Its fair enough to experiement. Its only natural. But never should you rely on a drug. Its to fake, to costly, to temporary.
g) Tragedies
By this i mean world tragedies. One of the main ones I am talking about is this earthquake and tidal wave business in asia. I have heard many peoples views on the issue. I think its just a sad that so many lives went to waste in that space of time. Its silly to send so much money over there to help them out though. Money doesnt solve the problem. Maybe send a clean up crew from the army, but nothing major. There are definately too many things happening in our own country that needs to be dealt with without having to help other countries with there problems. We do our bit thats enough. No need to go overboard. There is funding that needs to be placed elsewhere. But on saying that, I feel extremely sad about all the people that lost someone or worried about someone while this was happening, and not know what was going on, and still doesnt. I will say a prayer for you and hope some sort of happiness will come to you soon.
h) Music
A lot of songs have touched me over this year. New music that i have only listened to this year, but only one song has effected me so much. This is it. I will post the lyrics so you all can have a read. I cant get enough of this song!
"Epiphany"
Your words to me just a whisper,
Your face is so unclear,
I try to pay attention,
Your words just disappear.
'Cause its always raining in my head,
Forget all the things I should have said.
So I speak to you in riddles,
'Cause my words get in my way.
I smoke the whole thing to my head,
and feel it wash away.
'Cause i can't take anymore of this,
I want to come apart,
or dig myself a little hole,
inside your precious heart.
'Cause its always raining in my head,
Forget all the things I should have said
I am nothing more than a little boy inside,
that cries out for attention,
yet I always try to hide.
'Cause I talk to you like children,
though I don't know how I feel.
But I know I'll do the right thing,
if the right thing is revealed.
'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
Yeah you have to really hear the song. Its sort of depressing, but also sort of uplifting. I cant really explain to you how i feel when i listen to it, and then how i feel after its finished, but its a mixture of happiness and sadness. I dont understand why it has such an impact on me but it does. Funny thing music is..
Anyway, so as you can see mixed in there are my semi new year resolutions. I dont really ever make them just because it seems like then you have something expected of you. I really hate expectations. I rather just see what happens. If i make a wrong choice i will try to fix it. If all goes well.. well good on me! So yeah. New Year is not really a big thing for me. I like the idea that its an awesome excuse for a piss up, and to have lots and lots of fun with mates. So may you all have a great new year. Take care of yourselves.
I shall see you on the other side!
(another good song.. just cos its awesome so i posted it)
"Bring The Noise"
Gimme some guitars punk
Sweet Leth
Limp Bizkit in the house
What fucken' house?
Seattle baby
Terry Date, Limp Bizkit, Staind
Bring the noise
Bass! how low can you go?
Death row what a brother knows
Once again, back is the incredible
The rhyme animal
The incredible D. Public Enemy number one
Five-o said "freeze!" and I got numb
Can I tell 'em that I really never had a gun?
But it's the wax that the Terminator X-1
Now they got me in a cell 'cuz my records they sell
'Cuz a brother like me said "well?"
Farrakhan's a racist and I think you should listen to
What he can say to you what you otta do
Follow for now power of the people say.
"Make a miracle, D. pump the lyrical"
United we stand, all in all, we're gonna win.
Check it out, yeah y'all, here we go again
Turn it up, bring the noise!
I said turn it up! bring the noise!
Never badder than bad 'cuz the brother is madder than mad
At the fact that's corrupt as a senator
Soul on a roll, but you treat it like soap on a rope
'Cuz the beats in the lines are so dope
Listen for lessons I'm saying
Inside music that the critics are blasting me
For they'll never care for the brother and sisters
Now across the country has us up for the war.
We got to demostrate, come on
They're gonna have to wait 'till we get it right
Radio stations I question their blackness
They call themselves black. but we'll see if they'll play this
Turn it up, bring the noise!
I said turn it up! bring the noise!
Get from in front of me, the crowd runs to me
My DJ is Lethal dose, we call him Leth you know
He can cut a record from side to side
So what, the ride the glide should be much safer than a suicide
Soul control, beat is the father or our rock' n' roll
Music for whatcha, for whichin' you call a band man
Makin' a music abuse it but you can't do it, ya know
You call 'em demos but we ride limos, too
Whatcha gonna do? Rap is not afraid of you
Beat is for Sonny Bono, beat is for Yoko Ono
Run DMC first said a DJ could be a band
Stand on it's feet get you out your seat
Beat is for Eric B. and LB as well, hell
Records from Fred D still we can rock bells
Ever for ever, Universal it will sell
Time for me to exit, Terminator X-it
Turn it up, bring the noise!
I said turn it up! bring the noise!
Bring that fucken' noise, and get the fuck up
Get the fuck up
Bring the noise
Bring it
Fuck this
Limp Bizkit
Fuck this
In the studio
Fucken Suck ass
Bring that noise
Man fuck this
Terry Date is a fucken pain
Everybody shut up and turn the fucken' tape off
a) Friends
This year has been a big thing in regards to what has happened with friends. I have sadly neglected seeing a lot of my school buddies, except for a few because they have hung around with me and Jay. This is due to a lot of things, mainly because of work and just other plans being made. Its hard to balance and one new years resolution is to do a better job of it. I have lost a friend or 2, mainly due to me losing all respect of them due to whatever shit they have done. Its made me really look hard at a lot of friendships and figure out what is happening there, and maybe better myself as a friend. I feel like i have gotten a lot closer to some friends as well, a couple in particular I feel I completely understand now, well probably understand as much as they would ever allow someone. Other friendships are just the same
as always.. strong and ever resiliant.
b) My Baby
Things are going awesome with Jay. It was our first yearly anniversary and things are going awesome still. There are hard times like now, when she is stressed about her job situation, but I help where I can and things are doing ok. I hope this lasts longer than i could possibly imagine because it does feel very right.
c) Work
Work has been stressful and wonderful during the year. There are moments where all i want to do is go home because i am so tired while doing some form of dock work, but i am really enjoying it. There are great people to work with and they definately create a big plus over some of the more unwelcome people and some of the things i have to do. I might stick around there a bit longer and see where it goes from there.
d) Uni
Uni was a big thing this year. For the first time not only did i have to balance a job, but also a girlfriend. I did alrgiht but i did stress out a lot, and make a few bad decisions in regards to when i should hand in a assignment. But i think i will do much better this semester, because in theory its my last one! Yay!
e) My Body
I hate to admit it but i have stacked on a bit of wieght. This time last year i was at my physical fittest. I had never felt better. Well in the space of a year i have become so unfit its horrible. Also grown a bit pudgy. Which sucks ass. But im gonna fix that. I am cutting back on sugar, fatty food and doing a bit/lot more exercise where i can. So thats good! Jay is doing a bit of that sort of thing with me, and will definately doing more with me, so hopefully i can get back to how i used to be. Well hopefully!
f) Drugs
It wasnt really an issue but this year my friends got into a few different things. One was short lived, and actually had a negative effect, but luckily that one got cancelled. Another one is still a big favourite and has actually suckered in a few people that werent expected. I suppose it didnt really help how much my mates talked it up. Its not anything that special though. If you have to rely on that sort of thing for even a slice of happiness, you are relying on the wrong things. One of the main users of this even realised this. He now just wont take it, and if he does it will only be on special occasions. He told me this the other day and i was actually shocked and proud of him. But still a lot of friends take the drug constantly, or any oppurtunity. You really need to look at yourself when you get excited about taking the drug on the weekend, and nothing else makes you happy. That is when you need help. Its fair enough to experiement. Its only natural. But never should you rely on a drug. Its to fake, to costly, to temporary.
g) Tragedies
By this i mean world tragedies. One of the main ones I am talking about is this earthquake and tidal wave business in asia. I have heard many peoples views on the issue. I think its just a sad that so many lives went to waste in that space of time. Its silly to send so much money over there to help them out though. Money doesnt solve the problem. Maybe send a clean up crew from the army, but nothing major. There are definately too many things happening in our own country that needs to be dealt with without having to help other countries with there problems. We do our bit thats enough. No need to go overboard. There is funding that needs to be placed elsewhere. But on saying that, I feel extremely sad about all the people that lost someone or worried about someone while this was happening, and not know what was going on, and still doesnt. I will say a prayer for you and hope some sort of happiness will come to you soon.
h) Music
A lot of songs have touched me over this year. New music that i have only listened to this year, but only one song has effected me so much. This is it. I will post the lyrics so you all can have a read. I cant get enough of this song!
"Epiphany"
Your words to me just a whisper,
Your face is so unclear,
I try to pay attention,
Your words just disappear.
'Cause its always raining in my head,
Forget all the things I should have said.
So I speak to you in riddles,
'Cause my words get in my way.
I smoke the whole thing to my head,
and feel it wash away.
'Cause i can't take anymore of this,
I want to come apart,
or dig myself a little hole,
inside your precious heart.
'Cause its always raining in my head,
Forget all the things I should have said
I am nothing more than a little boy inside,
that cries out for attention,
yet I always try to hide.
'Cause I talk to you like children,
though I don't know how I feel.
But I know I'll do the right thing,
if the right thing is revealed.
'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
Yeah you have to really hear the song. Its sort of depressing, but also sort of uplifting. I cant really explain to you how i feel when i listen to it, and then how i feel after its finished, but its a mixture of happiness and sadness. I dont understand why it has such an impact on me but it does. Funny thing music is..
Anyway, so as you can see mixed in there are my semi new year resolutions. I dont really ever make them just because it seems like then you have something expected of you. I really hate expectations. I rather just see what happens. If i make a wrong choice i will try to fix it. If all goes well.. well good on me! So yeah. New Year is not really a big thing for me. I like the idea that its an awesome excuse for a piss up, and to have lots and lots of fun with mates. So may you all have a great new year. Take care of yourselves.
I shall see you on the other side!
(another good song.. just cos its awesome so i posted it)
"Bring The Noise"
Gimme some guitars punk
Sweet Leth
Limp Bizkit in the house
What fucken' house?
Seattle baby
Terry Date, Limp Bizkit, Staind
Bring the noise
Bass! how low can you go?
Death row what a brother knows
Once again, back is the incredible
The rhyme animal
The incredible D. Public Enemy number one
Five-o said "freeze!" and I got numb
Can I tell 'em that I really never had a gun?
But it's the wax that the Terminator X-1
Now they got me in a cell 'cuz my records they sell
'Cuz a brother like me said "well?"
Farrakhan's a racist and I think you should listen to
What he can say to you what you otta do
Follow for now power of the people say.
"Make a miracle, D. pump the lyrical"
United we stand, all in all, we're gonna win.
Check it out, yeah y'all, here we go again
Turn it up, bring the noise!
I said turn it up! bring the noise!
Never badder than bad 'cuz the brother is madder than mad
At the fact that's corrupt as a senator
Soul on a roll, but you treat it like soap on a rope
'Cuz the beats in the lines are so dope
Listen for lessons I'm saying
Inside music that the critics are blasting me
For they'll never care for the brother and sisters
Now across the country has us up for the war.
We got to demostrate, come on
They're gonna have to wait 'till we get it right
Radio stations I question their blackness
They call themselves black. but we'll see if they'll play this
Turn it up, bring the noise!
I said turn it up! bring the noise!
Get from in front of me, the crowd runs to me
My DJ is Lethal dose, we call him Leth you know
He can cut a record from side to side
So what, the ride the glide should be much safer than a suicide
Soul control, beat is the father or our rock' n' roll
Music for whatcha, for whichin' you call a band man
Makin' a music abuse it but you can't do it, ya know
You call 'em demos but we ride limos, too
Whatcha gonna do? Rap is not afraid of you
Beat is for Sonny Bono, beat is for Yoko Ono
Run DMC first said a DJ could be a band
Stand on it's feet get you out your seat
Beat is for Eric B. and LB as well, hell
Records from Fred D still we can rock bells
Ever for ever, Universal it will sell
Time for me to exit, Terminator X-it
Turn it up, bring the noise!
I said turn it up! bring the noise!
Bring that fucken' noise, and get the fuck up
Get the fuck up
Bring the noise
Bring it
Fuck this
Limp Bizkit
Fuck this
In the studio
Fucken Suck ass
Bring that noise
Man fuck this
Terry Date is a fucken pain
Everybody shut up and turn the fucken' tape off